DEFENDER'S RAP

• Back then I remember when Rappad was Tinder, as a member, this young G was the hardest user and was often tender
• I had a soft side, especially when it came to females, I ain't saying no names nor giving any details
• I instantly fell in love with you when we met on this website, I guess it was love at first sight, since the beginning to the end, I still remember our first confessions and our first fight
• At the time, I was still talking to other females before you, just friendships with the previous ones, but I truly adore you
• Yes, those girls were just friends and nothing more
• and around the time I discovered you they were no where to be found, leaving me to bore
• and after I found you is when I had lost them, they came back around sometimes, but it wasn't awesome
• I had came a long way from flirting and macking, but then I was like fuck them all
• Even before and after I was with with you, I would eventually cut them off
• and during the time when I was with you, I forgot about them and never bothered to fucking talk
• I never was close with any of them, with them I never caught or had feelings, and for me, I don't think none of them ever got or had feelings
• I stopped contacting them on social medias, I stopped sliding in the DM's, only to sacrifice and socialize with you, texting you on the Pad and the in the PM's
• I remember we used to text and talk all the time, we would really communicate, all day and night of every day, we would really conversate
• We had full conversations, no matter if it were negative or positive, we connected best through our discussions, and now it is the opposite
• I remember you were waiting, and couldn't wait, for me to personally meet you, I was planning a trip to Cali but had a change of plans, and now I'm yet to personally see you
• We been through so much, both when we were together and separate, we both been through the worst in life, I rememember we were desparate
• See you didn't understand, that Y.L.G. has alot of enemies, alot of prejudice and judgemental snakes and even frenimies
• It wasn't all about our age difference, some was about the jealousy and the envy, when I was letting you go softly, I just wanted our relationship to be friendly
• You were confused and upset with me, you then left me hanging and I was missing you, my haters were spamming us about our relationship, attacking me on the internet and dissing you
• But you were gone and you weren't there when it happened, I had to defend myself, and you were never there to have my back and,
• they were starting false rumors, as a rapper, I couldn't have that reputation, I even tried to keep being with you on the low, but I couldn't without hesitation
• and I didn't want you to get involved and get hurt too, but I didn't realize that I never told you why, and our breakup really hurt you
• More than me, so I recognized I was in my last days of being a teen, so I officially ended our relationship at 17, hoping we can get back together when you're atleast 18
• Which is a couple years from now, and I know you were tired of waiting, I honestly wanted to us remain friends only but just not dating
• and those were the times when were talking to other people, and we both had cheating allegations
• But I swear to you on my life that I've always stayed a loyalist, even if you didn't, and I have always treated you like a royal chick
• and if I ever hurt you, jusy know I never ever meant to hurt you, intentionlly, mentally, or physically, this pain really has me hurt too
• But most importantly, I know that we never met too, but just know that I won't and not forget you
• I love you, and I hope you forgive me, and I apololigize if you let me
• What I will always remember and recall about you, is that you always lag, and Lagger, I hope you still got love for me and that you never forget me