Trying

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Get out from work, but can't leave my car, cause I don't wanna go home
Sit in the parking lot, and I cry alot, cause I don't wanna go home
and yeah, I can't leave the bar, can't walk to far, cause I don't wanna go home
Sorry, but I'd rather be alone, and no, not gonna answer my phone
and sometimes it's the opposite, sunrise doesn't mean a shit
can't get out from the bed, I'm upset, doubting it all again
and I want my friends, but that all depends, on how I'm feeling right now
and they're aren't no trends, except that it ends, I'm in the lost and found
 
except the people who find me aren't the people who had lost me
And so I'm up for grabs cause no one tries to find me
Don't know how I'm s'posed to feel but believe I'm trying
But it's gotten so hard now I think I'm lying
 
But am I lying to you, or am I just doing this to myself
pushing you all away, when the only thing I need is your help
I want to apologize, but I'm not sure if I even know how
or to who, or what, Fuck, I'm sorry, I'll scream to the clouds
I'm sorry for everything that I've ever done
for letting you down, for not being a better son
I'm sorry to me cause the future I see
through my eyes is too bleak and not what I need
and I'm sorry to her, for breaking her heart
Can't turn away now, I'm already too far
fuck, is this a ledge, am I about to fall
and if I do, will anyone know at all
 
Cause the people who find me aren't the people who had lost me
And so I'm up for grabs cause no one even wants me
Don't know how I'm s'posed to feel, can't believe I'm trying
But it's gotten so hard now I think I'm dying
 
Can this be it? or can I find a way to go on
I mean, every horizon line brings with it a new dawn
Yeah things are bad now, but I'll confine it to this song
Maybe it's time to stop apologizing, fantasizing
about things that could go wrong
But what's going right?
No, stop, thats the thought keeping you up at night
open your eyes, look, you can see the light
don't give up on the day while the suns in sight
 
Cause the people who find me aren't the people who know me
no longer up for grabs, you can't own me
don't know how I'm s'posed to feel, but I'm trying
no matter how hard it gets, I'm still trying

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Rasha
Member since October 18 2014

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