My life in a single rap

This is my life

I hope you're ready

 

started real good out in MI

felt all the love and the hope and the will to try

but all that changed when i died inside

had to move and everything I had to lose

all my friends left me I was alone

and my heart turned dark it could chill you to the bone

bullied in school from 8 to 11

figured Id shoot up the school and probably go to heaven

or hell whichever came first

whether I rose or fell

I switched schools things got better but not by much

I started selling and pushing using drugs as a crutch

I figured I'd just be alone for my life

living on the edge of the knife

I found out my best friend was a prostitute with a mean heroin addiction

and the woman I loved for 7 years slowly became my affliction

she too shot up and I couldn't help but caught up

I started snorting oxy taking pain killers just to ease my soul

and we all know how well that goes

snorted cocaine heart beating faster than a rabbit

picked up a mean alcohol habit

I kept pushing though with some unholy will

and I carry on today and I'm stronger still

tried to kill myself 5 times now i see the beauty in life

thought everything was going good moved to a different neighborhood

then I got a call from my best friend he said good bye man this is the end

I tried to help him I cried and I pleaded but he hung up the phone and proceeded to slit his wrist

then 2 days later got a call from my friend in Taiwan ready to take a fall

off a 6 story apartment I tried to help her too but it didn't do any good

I thought of all things I could've and should've said

but you cant apologize to the dead

I started falling again picked up my oxy habit

was considering trying one more time with the noose

felt like I just couldn't hack it

like there was a code to life and i just couldn't crack it

I kept writing notes to everyone I love and I thought just one jump or one shove

with the rope around my neck then I stopped and said what if

I just wait one more day what if i just sit and say

Ill do it later

and here I am now trying my best to figure life out

I'm only 21 got my life ahead of me

I got a woman to love and a family ready to jump whenever I say

Never thought I would see the day where I understand the madness

never thought I'd see the method

never thought I'd make it thought I'd probably end up a meth head

or dead in a gutter and to this day I shudder when i think back to how I used to be

now I live for 3 things love friends and family.