About Me

My real name is Joshua Pachkowsky.

I lived with my mom the first four years I was born.

I was born in Winnepeg, but raised in Windsor.

Then I met my dad at age 4.

My mom wasn't the best mom ever. She dated several guys.

When I was five, she met a man named Daniel Dupuis.

They got married. I was there for the first part of the wedding,

But my dad picked me up soon after.

Just for the weekend, though.

I was still doing 50/50 Mom-and-dad shit.

My dad and I loved listening to Eminem. He had a CD of The Eminem Show.

I was inspired by Rabbit Run, which was a song by Eminem on his 8 Mile Album.

When I graduated, I tried to call my mom to have her at my ceremony,

But she didn't go. We gave the ticket to my Uncle Toine, a close friend of my dad's.

I have a half-brother named Brendan B. Middleton. And his birthday is May 28, 2025.

He's changed my life.

I wrote Dear Mom after I haven't seen my mother in a full year. I got the "letter"

Idea from Stan.

I forget where I got the idea of the name "Vortex," but when I got it, I loved it.

When I was in Kindergarten, I met a kid named Zachary Aaron Carriere.

He was my best friend for seven years.

We never really seen each other outside of school, (Except for one time,

I found him hanging around his dad at Walmart...)

By 2024, I was moving in full time with Dad. Mom and I argued a shit ton of times.

I kept telling her I wanted to see her every other weekend, because seeing her so often,

Would most likely make me go crazy with all the abuse.

One night I woke up to the sound of my mom being punched by her husband.

CAS got involved with that shit, and she kept denying it. She still does to this day.

But anyway, when Grade 7 was ending, my mom and I were getting in a shitty mess,

And she kept arguing with me and my dad. I moved in full time with my dad,

But it wasn't really on paper. So we're still fighting to get that in order,

Anyway, as Grade 7's last day came around, I knew it would be the last time,

I'd see Zac again. Gave him a big hug, and left.

Grade 8 came. New School. Amherstburg Public School. But I missed my friend.

Because he was the only kid who stuck by me.

I missed him so much that I wrote him a letter. Sent the letter to my old school,

And apparently, he DID get it,

But I never got one back.

And it fucked me up. Because it makes me wonder,

Was this guy even my fucking friend in the first place?

So as grade 8 was coming to an end, I started listening to Eminem again.

I fell in love. Rabbit Run helped me realize what I could be.

What I could be.

What COULD I be?

I could be Vortex.

So I started rapping in the beginning of 2025.

And eventually, as Graduation was coming,

I wanted to call my mom.

She answered, but insisted her husband (Mind you: he beat the crap out of her one night,

I'll never find any respect for that man) comes to my grad. I said NO.

She then said that the cat died. This cat was 25 years old. That's OLD AS FUCK.

And then she said she wasn't feeling well.

I told her I love her and hung up.

Never heard from her since then.

We gave my mom's ticket to my dad's close friend Uncle Toine.

Love that guy.

I remember shaking my teacher's hand on the stage that I rapped in a year later,

For the talent show in April, 2026.

Now I'm Vortex. A white Canadian novice Rapper who loves Eminem's music.

I found my new rap family, the Underdogs.

I met Carson in the first semester of Grade 9, and we immediately became friends,

We were rapping together, writing stories together, and eventually, he helped me make Legendary.

At some point, we were asking our friends to join us in our rap group. We were the Underdogs.

And later on, I was occasionally rapping with the boys at lunch breaks.

I performed at the talent show for my high school (North Star High School) as the ninth performer,

There was me as Vortex, Carson as Lil'C, Charley Pongratz as Speedy Charley,

And Henry Reaume as Missile.

We were the Underdogs.

And I rapped the first few verses of Legendary.

The crowd fucking loved it.

I loved it.

I felt like Vortex.

Then, I started using Rappad.

Recently, we teamed up with X-Factor.

And honestly, I don't even know if the rest of the Underdogs like hanging out with me.

Here's a rap about that:

"Sometimes I think the friend group don't like me no more,

But that's just 'cause nobody tries to find me anymore,

I'm always joinin' the conversation, sayin' shit,

But then I'm pushed to the corner, and when everyone leaves,

I'm a loner.

Shit like this makes me emotional, I'm supposed to be a fuckin' soldier,

A leader, not a follower,

I can't be popular if my friends don't know me,

I wish they'd look me in my eyes, tell me they don't want me.

I'm pushed around, all over town,

Tryn'a get back 2 my group's meet-up house,

But they don't tell me where to go now,

I freak out, hyperventilate,

Try to breathe,

One in, one out, breathe deep,

Lash out, fall down to the ground and weep!

Life gets hard when you don't know who or where your people are!

I keep havin' this thought, I'm on the sidewalk at 10 o'clock,

Walkin' to Speedy Charley's apartment,

Car comes out from the dark,

(CRASH!)

Hits me when I'm on the street tryn'a cross it,

I'm beat, I fall off the hood of the car and land on the cold concrete.

But that's just one of the things that I constantly think,

Blink, and you'll miss the one time your life is actually fine,

I'd give my love to my girl, I tell her she's my world,

Then the truth is revealed, she just used me like a shield for her exes,

I'd give my life to my friends, I'd take the pain 'til my end,

I'd take the blame for all the blazin' flames in Meadowbrook Lane,

Take the grenade when they're a mile away, explode the damn thing myself,

Take my name outta the game as long as the Underdogs get to live another day!

But they wouldn't do the same."

Anyway, That's my life. And now you know Vortex.