UNCENSORED

These demons stuck in my head

I can't even sleep at night

I'm so ashamed

I can't step into the light

Y'all think this is a joke

Like I'm just writing lines

But the fucking cuts on my wrists

Yeah they don't tell lies

I've seen every therapist

But my head's still in the skies

 

I've taken medication

But I'm still bleeding from my eyes

So now I make smoke

While tears stream down from my eyes

I've tried to tell people

Why I'm stuck inside my mind

But it seems like my feelings

Wanna run away and hide

It seems like I'm so fake

My smile's my biggest disguise

 

And I know this may not help

But I just want y'all to know

That tonight might be my last night

While I just sit at home

All alone all by myself

I got nowhere to go

While I sit in my room

I just won't sleep to cope

 

Anxiety and depression

They're my two best friends

Alone in the dark

Who knows what the fuck will happen

When I tried to speak the truth

My words got choked up I'm sadden

 

I'm God's tears here

In a physical form

Another bleak human being

Just a typical norm

Also beautifully imperfect

Every rose has it's thorns

I've been worse shit

Since the day I was born

 

And you wanna know what sad

I've never had a dad

Who can come to me and hug me

And say that he's got my back

One time I tried to call him up

But he claimed that he was homeless

Now everyday the thoughts in my mind

Saying was it worth it

I'm fucking hated so much

That I take my feelings and hide it

Do I have the heart to finish this

Fuck! That's undecided

 

Gave you a lot you took it for granted

I gave you my heart you left it so damaged

I gave you a love that you couldn’t manage

You up and then leave

You take off then vanish

Hate that you gone

Your voice I still hear

Pictures of us, us in your mirror

Reminds me of love scars in the tears

Gone with the love we found within years

 

Done with me nigga you tell me this why

Suicide baby I hope you don’t mind

Murdered me baby I’m dead all inside

Told me you love I’m mad cuz you lied

Replace all the pain with this Novocain

Reasons we broke up it’s me who we blame

It drives me insane it drives me insane

The pain you have caused I can not withstand