Alone

Sometimes, I just be feelin so empty, my heart is heavy

cause for some reason I can't make a penny let alone a fuckin twenty

Can't keep a job thats steady. fuck life i'm ready to take a machete

and slice open my belly, people may seem friendly

but with their hidden knives their deadly

i'm so tired of this burden I carry, like never able to be fittin in

classmates starin givin me attention like I made a sin

but I haven't felt happy since i've been at war with the devil within

my soul he be rippin, fates always trippin,

people ask if I have suicidal thoughts and I just tell them thats a given.

I've made a poor decision thats turned life to a prison

i've lost hopes and visions, zero ambitions

so all I do now is punch out this rhyme

like my life is almost at the end of its line, possibly almost out of time

the girl I love can't say that she gives it back, don't matter to me

guess i'm a maniac, being her boyfriend is only a title

it's nothing more and it's made me suicidal

lack of love and affection, I need the connection

but all that happens is tension put me into depression

not even to mention i'd give my life for her gladly

I just want her and me to start our own family and live in a valley

but i know that'll never happen sadly

get on one knee and pray to a god whom faith I have in, Guarantee

to end my pain and misery and let thee be free from this body

they say there's a somebody for everybody, but clearly for me there's nobody

so I should say my farewells and also that i'm sorry

sorry for bein a disappointment, sorry for bein a burden

that my best i've been workin, that i'm not superman i'm only a person

that i'm not some special version

Just like you I can bleed and cry,

sometimes I want to climb to the roof of a buildin and look at the sky

walk to the edge and spread my wings and fly

in other words die, I'll say my goodbye

I tell my psychiatrist that i'm not suicidal, just an angel who wants to go home

but I don't want to suffer any longer and die a lonely old crone

In the end it's the same result we all fade to bone it's writtin in stone

I'm tired of being alone and just want love and a home.

let me emotions stay inside, last time that I didn't

I was betrayed and it hurt my pride

i'm already dead inside, i can hardly cry

my tears no longer run guess my souls run dry

I just want to be held, and told everythings alright

but I go and I sleep alone every night

i've honestly given up on this fight, so i'm stuck in the darkness

before I become heartless, regardless of how bright

I think i'll just head towards the light