a song about family, a song abou...

It's been seventeen years an my heart didn't break yet

So why do I feel like i'm part of a train wreck

Every day spent like an aids test; positive

that all of this is just a product of a lack of confidence

 

But if I think about the way that my father lived

Tryin to break away from this apocalypse of politics

Was always hostile to bother him, thought i did not exist

Or was it the opposite, did I destroy my father's kid?

 

So why can't I go to his office an talk to him

why do I treat the man like he's harborin' hostages

Like he's part of the problem, it's obvious he's not he's just

swallowed by the promises Papa got from his consciousness

 

Papa's pockets are bottomless from workin' hard

Just stayed honest to himself, didn't follow the word of god

Stayed hollow in his current job, swallowed his burdened pride

And lookin back it makes me feel so sorry I never heard him sob

 

And my mother, god knows that I love her

Even though I never said it back when I was younger

Helping me to look at every situation logically

And guided me to light when the whole world was mocking me

 

Her only struggle is worry when im troubled

Hoping someday I can burst from my bubble

Learn from the puzzles emerge from the rubble

and live for a minute but hurt for a couple

 

I cant imagine what it's like to hear your child scream

To see your child bleed, watch them in dire need

Riding at light speed to find where their life leads

But all the same tryna tame their inner wild beast

 

I dont doubt it, both of them did care for me, Lived carefully

and every fucking night im damn sure they were scared for me

And even if they never were the very best at parenting

They fucking tried, and even family ain't guaranteed

 

Drop an apple where the tree trunk stands

Listen to the captain, do as he commands

Their only purpose? Givin' me a chance

To spread my wings and help me be a man

 

Drop an apple where the tree trunk stands

Listen to the captain, do as he commands

Their only purpose? Givin me a chance

To spread my wings and help me be a man