Insomnia

at night when i'm tryna sleep these monsters creep

waking me from the dead, fucking with my head

i just want some rest

a place to nest inside my head where i'd be safe at last

no longer trapped like a fucking rat

 

i close my eyes but my mind is fried

i see a memory of a girl

of a girl i don't recognize

a girl afraid to stand up afriaid to try

she opens her mouth but nothin comes out

tears flood her eyes only to my demise, because that was me... the girl i use to be

 

not afraid of the dark but afraid of his mark

someone notices the bruise only to his amuse

he laughs you cry, you know you have to try

but everybody only ever takes his side

so why bother to try just keep it bottled up inside

it'll eat away at whats left of my brain

i'll be insane and it will all be in vain

but i'd rather be torn to shreds then trust anyone ever again

 

the pain the pain, it's driving me insane

i wanna tell someone but this is nothin

just me suffering it's like i'm stuck buffering

a disk that'll never load

my brain crashed my heart smashed

i try to speak but the words won't come

the only think i can say is i'm sorry mum

 

( yall i'm ok this is just how i cope)