Lost of Love Ft. StormTheArsonis...
• Written by Khay- • Featuring BELLVADEAR and StormTheArsonist
//Verse 1//(StormTheArsonist)
I've found myself trying to sort my differences in self support,
exhausted feeling at fault and blaming the man on the cross
i'm done with these countless thoughts of sorrow, this pain I've fought
has me lost, feeling defeated, seeing no tomorrow, thrown off coarse,
as i proceeded with this loss, my life completely changes
I'm struggling to remain courageous cause the hurt is contagious
spreading rapidly throughout my head, leaving me tasteless
totally inpatient for answers, cursing the Lord "YOU BASTARD!"
cause to me, its the only thing that matters, i miss our laughter
flipping through chapters without you while nothing no longer matters
it couldn't be sadder, but i can feel it slowly getting badder
5 years later here i am still picking up the pieces that shattered
dwelling cause we had a special bond and its gone, replaced with anger
at times i go back to the memories I've captured.
to get away from the reality and escape this disaster
thinking..... the healing would go by faster
thinking.....this will get one foot on that ladder.
im slowly removing this dagger, and slowly able to gather
more strength rather then weakness, and feeling sleepless
daily having this emotion repeat this, heartless uniqueness
im tired of this emptiness which has left me speechless
Thank you Jesus!
Now the pain slowly decreases, and the healing slowly increases
ive healed but never forgotten, and still hold on to all the pieces.
//Verse 2//(E-Z-Khay)
It's hard to live life with this burden on our shoulders
Knowing we never got to say our goodbyes, just hurts us as we get older
Tears dripping down her face, starting to freak out so you decide to hold her
As life fades from their body, it just gets colder
She was too weak, cause the sickness caught up, so she sold her
soul to the man above
Even though life seems tough, just remember your still loved
Suicide isn't the answer, even when it seems like your unloved
Some might want to give up, just cause there judged
I pray to god, in hope they find peace
Emotions pouring out like my eyes are waterfalls, as I see my niece
laying' in the casket lifeless, at least all her pain will release
May the souls of the ones who are decease
There are times that I wish they could be resurrected
Some's death are unexpected
Even when I barley know them I still get affected
Their souls have been directed
to Jesus, so their in a better place
//Verse 3//(Bellvadear)
To my father who in heaven
Wish I could say Hi Dad
Rewind my records but I block it all out cuz I'm sad
My heart's to hurt
And pain makes me mad
Anyone else ever call me sweetheart I'd probably break out their teeth
Cuz remembering your voice
Makes my heart just skip that beat
Now just an echo a repetitive thud
Wanna be so numb but disappointed by drugs
None of that ever did replace your love
Where are you now when I really need your hug
Most days keep me busy to keep my mind off of you
Hate to be a workaholic but it's became the reality of truth
Anything to keep me from getting back into them blues
So much I wish I could share like my growth
So much you'll never know I wanna show like this not having you here shit blows
Cuz your never again gonna be there
I could call and the bells just ring
Does this hurt forever cuz I wanna go home
I'm choked up
I can't even sing
Inside I scream
But stand with tears they're silence streams
I close my eyes and days just pass
Ever since the day you had
I wish I could change
This pain is a cannon
To my chest always traumatized from the blast
Stuck a blade in my artery's
Bleeding out
Heart broken, heart's stroke'n
Killed the heart in me
I died to
Every part in me
Yal pardon me this makes it hard to breathe
Two peas in a pod that's what you always said
Now the crops withered it's all fucken dead
I'm sorry I miss you
I should let you rest in peace
But how can I live on
When they took the other half of me
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Khay-
Member since December 7 2018