a talk to God

what gives me the right to complain

in a few years this aint gonna even look like pain

so i might just end it all right now

wow, actually i think i can leave behind these chains

just to kill what remains

just to slash my own veins

wow this is kinda easy

maybe then i wont be called cheesy

people say im freaky

but you aint seen freaky

til u see me try and compete against these rappers man thats really

dillusional

and everytime i get close i quit quickly

i aint nearly as lyrically as these rappers

but nothing really matters

i guess if one person understood that thats my uncle

why do i try and heal myself if all i can do is fumble

shit, to my peers im invisible

i dont know how to talk to these people

so id rather walk in the room and retroflex

id rather be alone i hate people so i regret

as i walk through the valley of death

i fear no evil

shit all i really fear is a fucking needle

they say that we are all created equal

except those dying in the streets

or those without the basic needs

or those who have it all but somehow still bleed

the same blood as us

clock in clock out makes me feel worthless

 

my anxiety makes me look like a walking talking circus

ugh is that the way life goes

it seems like no one elses demons follow them like shadows

i might just escape it all and run into the meadows

put down a rose and say father forgive me

yeah i know that we aint close, i ran as soon as i tried to overdose

and i tried your book, and i tried the most

and i tried this belt just to help me choke

i feel like insides are about to burst

i felt like i had the worst even as a child

you werent there to help me through it

is it the way that im wired

am i supposed to feel hurt

cus lets face it lord, yeah im not the first

in the family is this you who planted the curse

are these prayers right, is this a test: this blight

why am i the only one who doesnt feel think this is alright

why do i feel insecure in the day but fine in the night

is this a sign that i dont wanna fight

shit should i come right back to you tonight

is that right, nah fuck it im proud i got my own might

dont need no spirits im alone out of spite

im alone out of spite aint that right