Only U en trust

Just because noone believes you doesn't make it any 'less' true..so many pepple already believe breathe and live lies because of how 'much' they are told as truth and it spreads and sticks like glue so yeah energy bounces off me or you vice versa too.

As well so many go around claiming to be real, I read between the blank LInES. Behind shut blinds like blind eyes concealed so like they say be careful what you think is less than real.

They convict but I'm no convict, but actually opposite just a bit haunted.

But apparently

I've sinned and now "I deserve all that comes this way". Guess life takes it's toll, now it's time for me? to pay. Can't remember doing much wrong but some make me feel burnt up like the end of a cigar in an ashtray.

Those juries-dick'tions, fury, friction,  all the fast and hurry for fiction, aint shit real in imagery they manipulate depictions, slander what is truth in dedinition.

So..

I sit in origami enclosing myself in the sheets, I dont wanna sing anymore I can't even wanna feel the beat. Everytime the bass the keys or strings plucked digs in me deeper, an infected papercut, music notes I keep.

Noone sees or reads between the ties,see the smile I paint is so detailed and defined almost as if it were just a figment of the mind.

I stare into a scope as I watch everything kalied, shift like my emotions while wishing they'd subside then I think how can one feel so dead if they can't even die.

Should be looking down the end of a barrel or a bottle, I feel like a scarecrow tryna be a model.

Writing fairy tales I should be 'living' every girls dream but just like Disney. ever after ain't what it seems, and I'm ripping at mine like cryogenic frees, til heat of rage rises and it thaws moments in time we wanna freeze.

Wants me on meds but I'd rather be dead feel like it anyways monsters well fed, after all the blood and tears I've shed.

Tell me they want me around yet I still feel unwanted like what do they benefit could I offer them something.

Guess being me is just never enough, so to keep me from drowning in tears I keep filling this solo cup.

I am a time capsule I defy time I can move forward or rewind in my mind but

Diet and exercise trying to lose weight like it will take it off my shoulders..is a lie.

Running circles on these tracks like I'm running from my problems but if I solve one another pops quiz to still not solve em.

Beating myself with tbese bars like it will replace my once beating heart but its a dead battery a car that won't start.

I see to have wisdom you must have a wise dome. Eye can inner change like vowels but make different sounds.

How much weird is weird until it's your normal, like they pressure for casual and then they want formal.

I'm on clearnace at the trauma unit, sirens sounds my song just cue it.

Again..so...

I don't need you hard on me, I'm hard enough even if you don't see, tired of hurting so just if you could please....either kill me already or just let me bleed.

I mean how much pain can you gain before you go insane, how many times can you die in a day, everyone just wants to live in peace okay...

Say I do things I'd never, make me feel terrible, so under the weather, so weak and hindered like I could never get better.

NO NO NO...

JIST STOP. JUST STOP..✋

I just need to breathe let those thoughts....leave...

Each Palm folds as it signifies unity then placed at that pineal gland as prayers flow fluently.

I stay high on energy, recharge the inner me, I am my centerpeace!