DEPTH OF ME 1

PTSD waking me up from bed i look upset

Sad times bad days shit makes me look mad

No drugs fuck these pills i need more no whore

Before i leave this life i gotta score for all my wins

Tears dripping on the floor blood prints on the door

I guess heart break got a cure cos i can't endure

Ain't no pure love in this world served for heart breaking

Wasting souls committing suicides cos everything is fading

Things keep changing ain't no time left for human to repent

So am tryna prevent myself from the cells of sinners for the worse

Fuck all these snitches we call friends acting to be bitches with no smiles

But only wanna smile too when we start earning even when it hurting hard

If pain was from birth might abort it cos it don't support

Poured love for everyone but i only feel like i have none to call on

Upon all the caring and helping i rather keep stressing beyond

Hopped for better days but i guess am left with letters to wait on

Can't exchange my soul for forever death, even my flesh worth it

Cos this world ain't gonna be forever ,hoping to find a treasure

I got a lot of thoughts i have fought over but still keeps me cutting

Putting me into deep shits bullets won't even reach out for

It like a war in my head fighting over suicides that changes us

And with a nervous love that has a surface of a reptile skin

What's the connection of anger with a feeling of aggression

Sketching life at the shore watching the waves rolling at my feet

Feeling the heat of depression that exceeds from my heart beats

Making me drown to the depth of the coldness of the sea levels

It always a nightmare each day with panic attacks i can't risk on

Battling battles from every angle am still thankful how far he has brought me

Cos many won't understand thinking life is a plan but only leaves me done