Changes

[Intro]

I'm not okay

But I say I'm fine

I'm not okay

But I'll be alright

Yeah I'll be alright

 

[Verse 1]

I've been tryna change

Tryna get my head straight

Tryna get everything back in place

But nowadays, I've been losing face

Been losing faith in everything

And everything still bothers me to this day

 

I don't wanna live my life like this,

I don't wanna spend my nights like this,

I don't wanna keep thinking bout the bad things

All they ever gave me were all these bad dreams

 

And these nightmares keep coming

And I just keep running,

I feel like I'm falling,

While everybody's watching me

I'm scared to reach out because of my anxiety

Honestly I'm tired of all of this entirely

I wanna turn over a new leaf

Yeah I really wanna sing about some new things

I'm tired of this sadness,

Like a disease, it's quite contagious

They say misery loves company

But I'm still alone regardless

 

[Chorus]

I've been drifting in the wind

I've been drowning in my sins

I've been crawling on my knees

Living in my misery

And I'm so tired of this shit

Wish things could be different

But could I change anything?

Or am I just ignorant?

 

[Verse 2]

Pitter patter, goes the rain on the sill

The sky's open wide, and my teardrops spill

Another sleepless night, another bitter pill

I think of reasons why, why my life is still

Still struggling daily, and every day I'm failing

Every morning when I wake, I feel far from amazing

I feel terrible inside, and I just really want to die

Don't want to commit suicide, cause that'd make my parents cry

Shit, what the hell am I supposed to do,

When all I see is all this gloom,

And all my pills have been consumed

So I just sit and feel confused,

Can't handle all this abuse

That I'm inflicting on myself

I need a doctor or some help,

 

But only time will tell

If all the times I fell

Would shape and make me into someone else

Somebody that's stronger than I am now

I need that strength, cause I can barely stand now

 

[Chorus]

I've been drifting in the wind

I've been drowning in my sins

I've been crawling on my knees

Living in my misery

And I'm so tired of this shit

Wish things could be different

But could I change anything?

Or am I just ignorant?

 

[Outro]

I'm staring down at my reflection in the rain

I'm looking back at my life, and I need to change