Hiding

I'm pleading for forgiveness

In an empty room again

But my soul is full of regret

Because I can not forget

What I did back then

So I'm inviting you

And I'm asking you to

 

Destroy me

Destroy me

Destroy me

So l can live again

 

I find myself in the habits

I swore to quit

And I fail again

Make the same mistakes again

And I'm about to loose it

 

And I'm begging you

And I'm pleading you to

 

Destroy me

Destroy me

Destroy me

So l can live again

 

Help me

Help me break free

This isn't me

What have I become

What have I done

It feels so empty

How do l stop it

The coldness inside

Is trying to eat me alive

 

So I want you

So I need you to

 

Beat me up

Break me down

Destroy me

So l can live again

With who I am

 

Please

 

 

Why is everything like it is right now

I can't even hear my inner voice anymo(re)

It's silent maybe even dead

Because I couldn't control my own head

I'm slowly drowning, slowly dieing

While I'm crying about death and dieing -,

Again I'm at this dark place

I can't seem to escape it it lives within

And I'm struggling breathless fighting for air

Or am I fighting, am I igniting the will again?

Or will it be in the and again a fight with no fighter

A candle slowly burning down?

I can't seem to find an end

I'm constantly floating in my head

But it's like the void you can't see

Neither can you move

And I open my eyes to see again

That Marivide is where I am.

 

Realization hits hard and makes you regret

Whatever you've done, whatever is wrong with your head

So try to close your eyes again

(You won't make it)

[Now you see how it all began ]

You'll try to hide again,

Make yourself invincible again

(But you won't make it)

Feel the faces staring at you again

See how you will fail again

Break down and cry again.

(You won't make it)