This life of mine

When...

When will it end again.

The pain of losing a friend.

Why did it have to end.

Again...

Again I must feel.

The pain as I heal.

When will I mend.

 

So what ever happens.

Happens in this life of mine.

I will never give up.

I will never quit tryin.

I wish that I could just say that.

I wish I could say that I'll be fine.

I wish I could just see you.

I wish I could just see you one more time.

This life of mine.

 

Why...

Why do we die.

We thrive and we try.

We just try and stay alive.

So the ones that we know.

Will never have to see us go.

Where...

Where do we go.

Do we still know.

What our life was before.

We walked through that door.

 

So whatever happens.

happens in this life of mine.

I will never give up.

I will never quit tryin.

I wish I could just say that.

I wish I could say that I will be fine.

I wish I could just see you.

I wish I could just see you one more time.

This life of mine.

 

How...

How do I cope.

I'm losing all hope.

Can't regain control.

Trouble letting go. As I wander off the road

That I know so well. This is hell just can't kill

These feelings I feel I can't deal with

The pain is so real.

 

It was so hard losing my brother. I clearly remember the day

I got that phone call just to discover that you were gone.

Took me so long to believe it was true I thought it was a joke

Until I saw mom and the look on her face I knew something was wrong

Then I realized it was true and I knew. I knew you were gone.

And it finally dawned on me that I will never ever see you again.

Then I blamed myself thinking there was something I could have done.

How will we explain it to your two year old son. I just wanted to run away that day

And then mom gave me a hug a hug like I've never felt before

I was 19 just had my first kid. I was still a kid just trying to hold on and stay strong

But the pain of you being gone was so strong it took so long

To accept it and try and move on. It's been 24 years now that

You've been gone it's been a long time since that day

March 27th 1995 was the last day you were alive we all still hurt with pain inside

I still cry on that day and on your birthday's so let me just say hey this is Jay and

I love you brother and again I will see you someday but not today and hey........

 

So whatever happens.

Happens in this life of mine.

I will never give up.

I will never quit tryin.

I wish I could just say that.

I wish I could just say that I will be fine.

I wish I could just see you

I wish I could just see you one more time.

 

This life of mine.......,😓