Move On

Yeah I havent thought about it in so long,

To tell the truth i thought i didnt belong,

Cause everyone still thought i was still on drugs,

Tell the truth they were so wrong,

To tell the truth wish I was gone...

 

Yeah I've been sober now for so long,

All these voices in my head that I've fought,

Tellin me I'm only, doin wrong,

Yellin out I only wanted a song,

Think this is therapy, well your so dumb,

Then whisper into my noggin you're just fucked up

 

If only i could move right along,

With my life id maybe, move on,

Cant help if I cry, im not strong,

I was only strong enough to survive for this long

Never strong enough to call your phone

Cause I know once I hear your voice, I be fuckin done

Every memory i have I was always a pawn,

so tell me how you expect me to act calm,

Sometimes I feel like im satans spawn,

Even though I'm atheist like saddam,

Can you understand why I feel so numb?

Can you understand why I feel so dumb?

Even with all of my wisdom I couldnt find the right one,

only a girl who never would ever want,

To have shit to do with a clever bum..

 

Ive been on the edge of my bed writing a letter,

Holding a gun in my palm,

tears stream down my face as if i didnt know it was comin,

Snapped back to reality an called my mom,

She was always good at talking me down when i feel so numb,

Succumbed by the pain I felt in my lungs,

Unable to breath as I write this song,

Anxiety keeping me from sleep I havent slept in so long,

Doesnt seem like I can eat either, What the fuck is wrong with me,

Why cant I just belong,

Why do i gotta go through this shit from dusk til dawn,

Why do I have so many questions can I not just be dumb,

Why are people so fucked up an why cant i become..

Somethin more than a dumbass victim,

Im sick of this please tell me theres something better to come

Cause as of now I am not welcome,

Not in this world or the next I'll just drift until I find god,

Or at least til times gone..