Scars Ft. Mishaal

I want somebody to hold me

tell me that I'll be there only

tell me that there is no reason for me to be living like I am so lonely

somebody that really knows me

shows me that love isn't phony

someone who's pleasant to be with and warm when I'm holding them keep them cozy

someone to stitch up my scars like

my heart was cut in a bar fight

deepen my wounds with a bottle, until I meet you and you make me feel alright

alright I know that that's selfish

but I just can't help myself its

getting significant, different feelings of feeling a little unwellish

unwell as in that I'm empty

something is missing again see

even so I know that although I feel low I really have probably got plenty

plenty of stupid ass problems

still have not started to solve em

how can I blame her when I was apart of what made the relationship rotten

wonder if I'll be forgotten

or if the thought of this is stopping

me of the progress that I have allotted as well that which I have since gotten

 

I keep on thinking of those moments

Like you were my favorite component

But really your lust in a way you could say you were really my perfect opponent

and you were good at it indeed

addicted like I am with weed

controlling and causing a whole lot of shit that I did not ever really need

dealt with it cause I felt something

till something became emptyness

till empty became that you hated me acting on ignorance like it is bliss

bliss is something that I've lost and

a part of me's tryna forget

to gain that emphemeral feeling I used to have when I felt love as a kid

the kid in me's barely around now

he's probably drowning in doubt

The rest of me's lost in this music because it feels better when drowning it out

When drowning is all that I know now

I try and breath deeper to slow down

I'm trying to hold it in, opening, doors that are probably the worst in the whole town

 

Throws you in every direction

when you look past imperfection

You see in someone else something that is similar like it is just a reflection

but really it's just a projection

of what you think from your perception

and really if you are not careful you can be fooled like it's some kind of inception

you're frequently making me question

if I even learned any lesson

I probably did and I'd figure it out if I would spend some time on reflection

instead I just keep on ingesting

this poison that I have been testing

smoking the dirty for wording and wondering what the fuck I've been confessing

Why do I still feel alone now

and why can't I just put this phone down

why do I crave oxytocin, i'm constantly hoping for someone to love now

yeah I could be stitches to scars

and treat all the wounds on your arms

but I am to crazy and jaded, and holding onto all these dreams of the stars

I want somebody to hold me

tell me that I'll be there only

tell me that there is no reason for me to be living like I am so lonely