SAMOfficial - Suicide Freestyle

(Verse)

 

Outside I say I'm fine, but inside I'm not alright.

I wear a fake smile on face, but deep down I'm crying.

What do I do? Everybody fuckin hates me.

My ex doesn't wanna talk to me, I told her I have a plan, she said what the fucks wrong with me.

I said depression is the new me.

I say I'm fine, but no one takes the moment to actually see if I'm alright.

I already wrote a suicide note, no not the song, an actual note.

I ain't gonna gloat.

I ain't got fans, no one cares, I'm just a little crow.

I ain't gotta voice, but when I rap, only some people care.

I rap about my life, and that makes me scared.

People worry about me.

I told my best friend I'm alright, but she doesn't believe me when I say I'm cause she thinks I'm boutta commit suicide.

I yelled at her, "I'M FINE!"

She cried, I never felt so guilty in my life.

She didn't say it, I felt it, I know I made her cry.

She says its not my fault, but it is.

I'm trying not to lose her, she's one of my only friends.

I already cut my leg, my visions telling to cut my arm too.

I don't know what to do, they say "it's up to you."

Fuck it.

I've already cut myself, Rachel do you see the burns around my neck?

Do you see the scars I'm about to inflict?

I'm not sick!

I'm just me, I'm gay and that's who I'm bound to be.

Until I die at sixteen, cause of death: Suicide by hanging.

I can't explain the pain, I'm going insane everyday.

I just want peace, no more visions, no more hurt, and no more decisions.