Alone

Why is it that I always feel alone?

It's like I try and try to help others through the unknown,

but all I get in return is the pain and the thoughts of self-loathing.

Pushed farther to the brink of suicide and to the point of tears flowing

On my knees in front of my demons

begging for forgiveness, trying to find reasons

The scars they stay and they never go away

I don't know how to deal with the pain anymore

it's gotten to the point where even my emotions are at war

Everybody around me always gets to be happy

Maybe it's because I try to fit in too much, I'm always the wannabe

I must be made to stay this way afraid, alone and unhappy