i cant group my fucking thoughts

Senseless i never had mentioned my problems

Philly see ghouls, ghosts and goblins, sneak heads

and hype beasts, infectious like HIV, i cant contract im too clean

i be wiping my dick like my ass i been countin up on this stack

i been chasing after bags, i wont stop until i feel confident to show

you what i have, born to create with the pen add a pad, take a step

how it look? not bad, no i dont need jewelry to be poppin

ya'll aint foolin me i can see that i got other options

cam newton i'd rather keep the ball cause my hearts already had to fall

diamonds up now and the spades up next, clubs in the end

where i'll finally have the loaded set of cards to play

then im lookin back on why i had such a delay,

the whole damn time my intuition was telling me focus

but instead i beat around the bush child things hocus pocus

dont work like you'd think it would as a kid sorry for the wrongs i've

done and rights i did for the wrong people cause what did i give

but my best and return nothing to expect, every night im chasing

towards a check come pay day im looking at the amount crazy

in my head debating lately if i should quit, devote my time to write and spit

only to be unaccepted though i feel i have a gift, lost in my mind right now

personality split, gemini petrified till its you that i get, pretty little mama

its you that i wanna raise, high hopes

better spirits, the sum of it all i can't lose touch with my fear its a motivation

to go and slay the day i've been waitin for, walking past you really wishing

that i had said more, wait i mean anything, my lips on lock your eyes on me

could get this young man to go give you all he's got,

is there a twinkle in my eye im just curious, might've lost that

from the pain but stand to gain from it everytime never refrain from

the numbing down, i know for lord sakes you're a heaven sent angel

i wont even try bang you on the first date, is that rude? i mean i wanna get

to know you, vise versa, so you can see i aint a dainty dude with a shitty

attitude im a man standing 10 toes down tryna master rap aptitude tests

they dont exist but my mind never rests, searching for the right lines and i

always seem to be the best when im alone drivin crossin over white lines

one day it'll all snap itself into place, ill be doin better than fine i know

thats the case, i got nothing to lose and the world to embrace, but it

would be so much better with my hands wrapped around your waist

while we make haste towards a family all i ever wanted, good times and

bad times we get through i promise, i wont make this life hard on you

im honest, i just want the best for both us so read everyday and stay hooked

on my phonics, philly phil with the tec-tonic like movements you gonna feel

like i aint do shit when in reality i been through shit you wouldnt wish upon

children grown women and men alike, im just a different type i'd rather not

expound on that, but gain my trust girl and lets knock the lust the girl

i got issues that i'll share with the world its just gonna take the right girl

so im hoping you're the right girl so i can write girl, issues sleeping cause

of overthinking every night, drown it out with brown, green, and light please

i rolled up some shit that might kill me, but fuck it, this the real me,

to the sins i plead guilty, i got 'Only God can Judge me' tatted on my shoulder

weight of my sins crushed im under neath a solar eclipse you wont get to

witness this catastrophe the one who was really meant to be,

writes like drake writers and could paint a picture vivid for the world to see

not only that, but i give you me in the physical form Philip dont conform to

the norm and they never did like that, silent in class always but loud thinking

about old days, trying to recapture repressed shit i feel demented, rambling

on this is already way too long plus its scrambled like my brain lost in a maze

i amaze myself, thought i knew better and found a way out only to find myself

filled with doubt, if this sad im sorry i know i need help, im way too stubborn

to reach my hand out, i'd die before i ever take a handout, and if i do then

believe you're truly blessed now, dont got long to live and i know it,

i wish i coulda lived every single moment, but the eyes always show it

facial expressions i cant hide always make people notice,

so they all stay away, afraid of the man who keeps the beast at bay

im the hulk but i dont turn green, i turn beet red then beat the fuck outta

something not realizing that its now dead, life sentence to the bed(grave)