Emotion

Ain't ever felt like this...

Ever since I was a kid

Taught myself not to feel

"Feeling's bad" "Feeling shows you're a girl"

So now I'm numb

But I guess it's better than being depressed

But I still miss my emotions that are being repressed

 

Ain't ever felt like this

Not since I was a baby

Remember all the things I felt

All the emotions I knew

But now...

I feel like all of this shit is new

I don't know how to feel...

I saw this shit on TV

But didn't know it was real..

Damn..

 

Waiting outside the ward

At the hospital

Getting pretty bored

Then I saw this commotion

Don't know what emotion

To pretend I'm feeling

If others could do it

Without hesitation

I have to determine

Which one of my thoughts

Would not cause destruction

Would not make people mad

Or get me in trouble

 

Ain't ever felt like this

Not since I was a baby

Remember all the things I felt

All the emotions I knew

But now...

I feel like all of this shit is new

I don't know how to feel...

I saw this shit on TV

But didn't know it was real..

Damn..

 

"Can I borrow a feeling" , fuck that

I need a whole bunch of emotions

To not differ from people

From every damn culture

Have to fake being happy

Fake being sad

To not have people asking me

"Do you feel bad?"

Ain't ever felt like this

Not since I was a baby

Remember all the things I felt

All the emotions I knew

But now...

I feel like all of this shit is new

I don't know how to feel...

I saw this shit on TV

But didn't know it was real..

Damn..