Hold Me (unmastered)

 

Im standin in a dark place, with death in the atmosphere

got me [Scared], I look around askin is anybody [there]

No response complete SILENCE, it was QUIET like deafen [ears]

Am I really alone, started cryin them childish [tears]

Even tho I heard nothin, saw the world as it really [is]

Started screamin for anyone, I dont care who it [is]

Somebody please just come and hold me, take away my [fears]

 

Cuz I just dont understand this world with no [order]

I see it as Hell iced [over] gettin [colder]

Come to take my HAND, warm them [up]

Take me to the promise LAND, before the door way IN is frozen [shut]

Give the same [love] back to when I gave a [FUCK]

Cuz right now I hero ONE, retract back to my shell if I had ONE

COWARDNESS cuz I'm POWERLESS,

My clock tick tockin HOURLESS, that shit will never [END]

They told me it was gonna hit the [fan], but I just let it [spin]

I'm [human]

I live to commit a [sin], [repent it] then do it [again]

It's guarantee, I ain't heaven [sent]

But that's because to GOD I feel like I aint [relevant]

I Pray my ass OFF, i shouldn't be livin for the [hell of it]

So tell me

Am I missin some crucial [element]

For me to be surrounded by those who broke my heart, somethin so [delicate]

You thought I was gonna forget what you did nigga, got the mind of an [elephant]

But like you, I'm an angel where the halo don't sit

Long forever lost my [innocence]

just like fiend friends, i am a [betrayer]

Don't know where I BELONG, what is right, what is WRONG

I go hard like Darth [Vader]

If only I had a [lightsaber], wouldn't that be a [life saver]

satisfy the hungeer of death, but that's something i can never [cater]

tired of playing this wicked game, tryin to be a committed player

always making the wrong move, unlucky with the dice

Wasn't ready for the real shit, can't even get pass the [beta]

Pity me i want you to [sympathize]/

Tell me things [like]/

Theres a [paradise]/

All i gotta DO/

Is [visualize] the same way your [eyes] DO/

thought they KNEW what i was going THROUGH/

I was gon take their [advise]/

but before i became that FOOL/

A man told me with his words [wised]/

Being real with YOU, 92+8 with YOU/

Their TRUTH their so called [paradise]/

It was nothing but a RUSE this whole [TIME]/

Their [lies] are played in the same TUNE as a devils [lullaby]

He told me for as long has he been [alive]/

He learned something [overtime]/

when my [skies] get CLEARER/

And i see the bigger PICTURE/

I'll [realize]

[Anytime] they say its gonna be [alright], it's a [sign]

That i need to take the SCISSORS and cut them [ties]/

And Come to think of it he [right],

These hoes don't [know me]/

Not even on a [low key]/

You say im STRONG , you WRONG all i want is someone to [hold me].

Cuz ALONE i start to [overthink]

Like what if the whole ground is covered in [gasoline]

And im Holdin up the LIGHTER, thinkin if I walk the FIRE i will never get [cold feet]

caught up in my EMOTIONS

Feelin HOPELESS, [relief]

Anger SADNESS, with little HAPPINESS

If this song was a text, it'll just be [emojis]

Trying have my nerves [chill], i take a [pill]

One aint ENOUGH, i need foam to [spill]

Be on my last BREATH, one more dose for the [kill]

ridin on my last [wheel]/ if i lose my [will]

Can you blame me for havin second thoughts on the devils [deal]/

 

My soul [leaks] like a ship bout to [sink]/

Man overboard I feel like im ocean [deep] /

Not rock bottom but the surface cant be [seen], now picture a man floatin in [between] /

Thats your boy [Quis]

Somebody [please] come down kiss my lips give me AIR/

been so long since I had the chance to [breathe]/

Can't [believe] in my heart hope is still THERE/

Thinking theres a [possibility]

that I will rise from the depths of DESPAIR/

Im AWARE life isn't FAIR, not like anyone told [me]/

But I dont CARE, I keep a strong [physique] /

Til it goes dark and i can't [see]/

in a instant i become [weak] /

And the Tears they start runnin down my [cheek endlessly]/

Like a child who wasnt found during a game of hide and [seek]/

Im haunted by those kind [memories]/

Afraid TERRIFIED there come a TIME yall wont remember [me]

What do i DO As my fear CONSUMES the last bit of my inner [peace]/

Always Wishing for the day that will bring the [end of me]

Bringing smiles to my [enemies]

Headline: [Quis] finally meets [defeat]

Thats something you cant [foresee]

Was it [destiny]? Was it meant to [be]?

this cant be how i go down in [history]

yall had the [ability] to keep this [unseen], you only had to do one [thing]

As I was sufferin gettin dirt on my [knees]

You didnt have to pick up, just stand by [me]

Til death do us PART

And honestly it wont be that HARD for me to [R.I.P,]

As I sit alone in the DARK [quietly], take a closer look into my [anxiety]/

Even tho my mind's BROKEN,

Even tho my lips refuse to OPEN,

Even tho I choose to speak with no [tongue]/

My words UNSPOKEN making sure not even [one] will take BREEZE]/

I forever SCREAM to the top of my [lungs]/

Somebpdy anybody please just 1come and Hold Me

Thats all a man [wants]