In the Silence and the Dark

In the silence and the dark,

I hear all these wolves around me.

In the silence and the dark,

I hear all these wolves . . .

 

Try to carry the world on my shoulders,

I ain’t got the strength (ain’t got the strength)

I try to run away,

But I can’t escape, (can’t escape)

And these walls are closin’ in,

My soul is broke again,

And I’m fallin’, fallin’ down.

 

I wear a mask for everybody every second of my life,

Like a masquerade, dancin’ to the tune of your parade,

I’m supposed to be the bravest, inside I’m still afraid,

That you’ll catch a glimpse of me and run away,

These lines are meant to free me,

These songs should let you see me,

But I never open up, hope these rhymes can be deceiving,

I tell half truths and lies, never once believing

That you’ll see what’s on other side, see what’s in my mind,

I write what you wanna hear,

Use words that I hear others share,

I wanna be myself, but I’m scared that I’m just another square,

So I hide behind a vacant stare,

Mutter a prayer that you won’t look behind the face I share,

The funny thing is that I’m exactly what I fear,

And it’s this mask that I wear that’s keepin’ me here,

The more I try to fight it, the farther away I get,

Ironically trapped in my own regrets.

 

They said if you ain’t love it, you’ll never make it,

So I gave it my heart, swore that I’d never fake it,

Then I gave it my soul, ‘cause those two can’t be separated

Even gave it my time, to show that I was dedicated,

Yeah, I even gave it my time, but never my mind,

Some little voice inside my head said it’d never be mine,

Forever resigned to a nine-to-five ‘till I decide to die,

Writes me off, however clever the lines I write,

I’m scared that someday when I look back at it,

Imma find I didn’t give it my all, wish I had another crack at it,

Then I panic, back track it,

Runnin’ back at a bunch of what if’s like I’m a crack addict,

In the silence and the dark, that voice grows louder,

I hear it in my dreams, in my songs, in my sets,

In my days, in my nights, my regrets.

I ignore it sometimes, but I don’t ever forget.

 

How do the days move so slow, while the years fly by,

I figured that by now I’d be sky high,

With a job that I like, and a house that I’m proud to drive by,

All settled down without a doubt in my mind, I,

Knew exactly what was comin’ at sixteen,

A decades passed, now I’m not sure what I’ve seen,

It seems I’ve been everywhere but up,

Started over ten times, still not sure where I’ll end up

I been honestly on my knees, askin’ God for some honesty,

I wanna test the waters, but don’t know what lies beyond the seas,

I could wind up stranded, abandoned, trapped on this odyssey,

Fightin’ off these demons like the Colosseum, God, I see ‘em,

‘Comin’ at me in my nightmares, now I can’t sleep,

Every breath that I take is like another week,

Look around, I’m feelin’ like I’m just another sheep,

These wolves the doubts I’m too scared to speak.

 

In the silence and the dark,

I hear all these wolves around me.

In the silence and the dark,

I hear all these wolves . . .