Msg To My Dad

I Was born in September I was young and free

Held out my arms to my whole family

My Mommy

Wheres my daddy?

Where the fuck was he?

Why did he have to cheat?

He's a fucking neek

Jheeze

 

Yo, I spent the best years of my life living down Jordans Close

Turned 18

Let's make a toast

A toast to us

To the whole family

But not to the one man that we never see

Yeah I may sound Peak

But imagine living a life where you've got to teach yourself

the things that he didn't do

Everyone stares at you

Everyone Questions you

When you're standing all alone

trying to ring your dad and he doesnt answer the phone

Man

 

I'm Sick of the lies

You never even tried

To be the main guy

To be the father Figure

In My life

What do I tell my kids

When they ask where grandpa is

Do I tell them that my mum was a hit and miss?

Yh Boy

I think you get the jist

 

On a brighter note

i express Feelings through the songs I've wrote

Emotions going up and down

Feeling like I'm on a boat

This ain't meant to be a sad song

this was meant to be a mad song

But after all that shit

It turned into a dad song

Jheeze

 

Is life worth living with all this pain?

Fucking around with all my feelings

Why do you think you can play this game...... Man

In a park full of a crowd

Why was I the little boy that always had to stand out?

Why was I always the little boy with no protection?

Couldn't even run to my dad when I needed Him

What's the point of being a father, you should've just wore protection

then maybe I could've been the kid to get some love and affection

from the real man that you were meant to be

I still remember you telling me

 

....... that you cared, that you could be my shield If i was scared

That you would make sure that i was happy

But not once did you change my nappy when I was young

You was sleeping round, Firing bullets from your fucking gun

You never cared about me

All you ever wanted was some fun

Damn

 

It really Hits me hard man

dunno what i'm meant to do

how do you survive if no ones even there for you

how do you feel so special if no one even cares for you

how do you live a life with the fear that stares at you

how can you not do the things that were meant for you

how would you like it if i stared at you

then said to you

go fuck yourself

you can go do all that shit by yourself

without no help

and when you need love and protection you can go scream and shout

but nobodies gonna open their arms and provide that wealth

you only ever thought about yourself

you prick

go and suck a dick

you don't deserve me man

might just call down santan dan

so he can roast you

so he can hurt you

so he can get through to you

then maybe you can realise all that shit that you went to do

all that shit that went through you

and mad me suffer

struggling to keep our feet, gave all that weight to my mother

you mother fucker

you aint a real man

nah you aint the real deal

imma take your ass

and show you the real deal

imma say one more thing before I get my last kill

 

You had the chance to be the one

you had the chance to change your ways

you had the chance to be a better man but you couldn't bring yourself

to give damn

Man...

what a shame

i've taken such a loss

well to be honest

my step dads got a better job

he's got a better house

he shows mum the love and affection that she deserves

he even married her, he even stayed with her

he even showed me the love that you never did

I needed it most when I was just a kid

its something that you never did

its something that you wouldn't even think to do

its something I would never even expect from you

 

Thank you for the lessons that you've taught me dad

Thank you for the shit that you've put me through

Thank you for all the scars and all the wounds

Thank you for letting them grow stronger than they could ever do

Thank you for teaching me, to be a better you

Thank you for making see the cunt in you

I never asked for you

I'll never answer you

you had your last chance

you lose

Maddddd