suicide and snakes

Listen up I know It's been long time but I'm back , but listen up I know life is hard and I don't know where to start but I always question why I feel so broke inside then I realize I don't wanna be here anymore I commited suicide hard but you gotta deal with it learn the fucking purpose .

ide 6 times and lost hella blood 6.50 and then my dumb ass goes harm self but I cant deal with bullshit life I mean cutting, drugs, gang shit ,parents wishing me to be dead and people calling me worthless

you don't know what I been threw jus read this or listen to this and I hope it gets to you cuz somone close to you might be going threw the same shit but ig they hading it really well .

 

and I'm not done with sick life but I mean like it is what it is I always be writing letters and suicide texts all over the place and one side of my body saying go die you don't belong here so gtfo and my other side sying stay you got a lot of people care about you , you belong here so please stay .

See its really fucking hard who to trust cuz people lie and come in and out like I never meant any shit to them but I guess its straight everyone uses me for sum bullshit like for real stop using me cuz I aint no fucking toy so please watch where you going if you don't like then grt the fuck out cuz I'm tired of being played by everyone that's with me and I barely trust a few and I'm really losing trust with everyone and I don't know who I should talk to cuz they all snakes so I guess I grew up alone and die alone and for the last time I aint doing anything for nobody cuz they be using me and wen I'm not there they be saying sum bullshit behind my back . And for all the people that been there where I am just know don't call everyone your friend.brother.cousin, sister, w.e you name it. But just watch out cuz they finna end up using you and walk out from your life like a dying bitch and u didn't mean anything to you so jus watch out from the reals and the fakes cuz sum times the reals turns into snakes so please take my words and be careful thanks.