Suicidal

Im suicidal holding the bible in denial knowin my death is vital,

Im homicidal knowing it will be michael holding the automatic rifle,

Should i take my own life or fight for survival still waiting for christs arrival,

The Vinyl on my title is a spiral my life cycle from rival to an idol,

 

Can people feel my pain my ordeal of trying to maintain for real im caught in a chain,

Tried to conceal in this Game but reveal my real name and appeal to try remain,

Im going crazy im a shame to my lady so if things go bad baby blame me,

When its rainy i go insane so hate me and toss me in the flame im shady,

 

I lose after i over overcame try walk in my shoes see what you can claim,

My views of fame caused issues so im lame but the truth is i hate what i became,

Time flew i cant hold against the rain if you knew chances are you would feel the same,

I cant continue or explain it so just see it through that you aim for my brain,

 

My full childhood i was took as a crook but i was misunderstood now im shook,

Cant overlook that i stood for good they wanna pass me the book with no outlook,

I try survive then i ask why my cries to the sky God wont even recognise,

A guy tryna thrive with no supply im sorry for tryna satisfy and advise,

 

If suicide is my only way out i cried many nights so time for the blackout,

I tried to guide the youth out so if i dont standout then this is a world i doubt,

Ive died inside since the gunshots rang out ive being going flat out so be satisfied,

I chose no side but my own im unknown so im all alone but i wont go prone,

Cause why would i give mercy when to me none was shown,