My life

(Haven't written in ages so don't judge the rhymes)

(Audio and recording comin soon this is just a work in progress)

 

See once upon a time there was this fucked up kid,

With the sweetest heart but always took the biggest hits,

Who was in love with art and music but never fitted in,

Often bullied for his own opinions , people started making assumptions , spreading rumours , pressing all his buttons ,

driving him crazy to the point he'd cry go home lock the door and prayed to god he'd just die ,

but hey now that's way up the track let's start back with day one and how it all fell to crap ,

aight so day one guessing you all know how it happens , momma gave birth to me 12 am in the morning everyone jumping up all happy , then the mood saddens ,

the child starts choking he's not breathing at all , mommas first child and he's already taking a fall ,

nurses suddenly rush to his side, already doing everything they can to keep this new born boy alive ,

the doctors rush in and fix the problem , boys thrown straight into a room full of surgeons under total observation before undergoing this life changing operation ,

hour and a half later boy comes out parents distraught , mumma starts screaming because it seems like the doctors done naught ,

takes a closer look and sees a long tube protruding out of his stomach , questions fly round the room til one man comes in and provides the reason why the little boy is sick ,

see he didn't wanna eat nor did he wanna drink , so the docs shoved a tube inside em to provide em with the nutrients and ability to think ,

the machine however amazing it was perceived also came with complications , the boy could never taste real food or even the sweet sensation

of water trickling down his throat couldn't even sleep without it becoming another dangerous situation ,

grew up with a machine permanently strapped to his side , travelling from his own bed to the porch outside ,

few years pass and the good news pile up , docs declare the boy no longer requires a tube through the stomach ,

but the shit drops and he founds out he now needs a new device for his own survival , getting bullied daily for having something that vital ,

boy gets a plug for his stomach still not tasting food but still living still feeling like naught , every day feels like he's on some type a life support ,

barely breathing but still hanging on in there , wondering if he can even stand another day try to keep on pushing ignoring every burden he had to bare ,

same shit continues on til the kid turns 7 , buttons been surgically removed but people are still pointing out several imperfections ,

he moves schools hoping for a new start new life , but all he keeps on getting is more and more strife ,

bullying gets worse to the point he gets hit , hits ground blood pouring out the nose an he's feeling like shit ,

getting dragged round by people he thought were his friends , least that's what he thought they meant by friends to the end ,

no one stepped in no body backed him , all his class mates just stood there and laughed at him ,

weeks later he graduated with fake as friends , still believing in his mind they'd be there to the end ,

then one day his sister fights with his step dad she's made him real pissed off and now he's really mad ,

so he calls him out and yells to get off of her , then everything goes silently not even a whisper is heard ,

the step dad stops and looks down the hallway , charging at the door so the kid slams it shut step dad hits it and he is so fucked door gets ripped off the hinges

and the kid gets beat to the point he can't stand up on his own two feet

Suddenly he was reefed up by his hair dragged around the floor screaming in despair

to the point momma comes in and starts to yell man that was just day one in fucking hell all

of a sudden high school starts and he's thrown into a world of shit , full of people talking bout boobs ass and dick ,

but no matter what he stayed innocent , still getting bullied realising their opinions are irrelevant , until their in the room and you can't ignore em cos they're the elephant ,

getting rejected on the side by 100 girls a night still doubting if he has the right to keep on with his fight self harming every night just hoping to god that soon he'd see that light

til one girl finally fixed all this sorrow , gave him that light and him wanna see tomorrow ,

suddenly was happy his life was fixed until he found out that his girl had been riding dick ,

heart shattered into a million pieces, the girl of his dreams had been cheating ,

suddenly questioning his life again , figuring out his purpose , wondering every day what his worth is ,

then one day he decides to make up with her , walks over to her house round the corner ,

doors wide open walks in looking for her ,

walks in her room there is no sign , here's the water running upstairs terrible thoughts come to his mind ,

rushes up the stairs terror strikes his eyes , his girlfriend of a year lay lifeless on the ground ,

he calls an ambulance as he falls down ,

he stutters to say the words he's in shock at what he found

, he bawls into tears as he tells them the address , can't bear to look at the bloody mess ,

razorblades dug sharp in her wrist, fresh cuts eyes open clenching her fist ,

the boy suddenly goes into shock he can't even move he sees her blood leaving ,he can't even talk he starts over heating ,

and now he's in danger the ambulance picks him up puts him into the comfort of a stranger ,

who lifts him to a bed in the Redlands hospital , still denying anything happened at all ,

he spend a week in that hell hole tryna think why ,why would she always wanna die ,

then it hits him he suddenly realised , he took a look at himself in the mirror and opened his eyes ,

she was exactly like him except the cheating and no innocence , had no friends til the end and wanted silence ,

he lays down in the hospital bed petrified , wondering what it would actually be like to die ,

fast forward a year and he's burning up green , chain smoking like a machine ,

3 packs a day man he couldn't even stop , til one girl appeared from up top ,

it's clear she was angel exceptionally divine , he just wanted to know how to make her mine ,

suddenly she comes out saying she loves him , feeling mutual and when they meet they click ,

eyes lock on to each other no movement , brain starts ticking over and he asks himself man I love her now how do I prove it ,

words come to his head they start kissing , few weeks down they track they now dating ,

once again the boy is happy as can be , until nearly two months later and he's broken it's easy to see

, see he's just broken up with his girl over rumours and lies , so again all he wants to do is fucking die ,

year goes by and shit it's the year of hell , did so much shit it's a wonder he didn't get locked in a cell

as the year comes to an end the spark re enters his life , his girl is back and he's back outta strife ,

no trouble no crime , she rushed to his arms tears streaming out they eyes , telling each other it'll be alright ,

fast forward and we've been together a year ,going strong as ever with no shed tears ,

unconditional love for one another , only eyes for one and not for any other ,

now he's good and that light is back , grades good no bullies and life's back on track ,

though the stories not over in fact it's only just begun for now it's quiet with just plenty of fun ,

however though chapters not even Close to finished , cos just like I said this is only the beginning