My Hopes

I kinda feel like i should be on my way to a billion

but instead I guess ill settle for a million

even though my work is published the public dont say its rubbish

so i guess i can move on to focusing on a trillion

 

that is where

I want to swear

that I could go

but i cant swallow

 

my pride

inside

i've tried

i lied

 

it hasn't really worked for me

and so im sad inside

 

though i choose not to show it

my brain is down the toilet

might as well take a bullet

and feed it to mj's mullet

 

cause that's what he did

he overdosed kid

he overused kids

a crime that he did

 

hook

and that is how it goes

it rocks and it rolls

sucks when these assholes

go and crush my hopes

 

try and deny, the lie that he cried to the gods that sit behind a big desk

with a hammer and a nail to build your coffin of eternal rest

and that is why I have chosen you to put to my eternal test

of who is better alive or deader than their opponent in their letter

 

of disapproval that they call a rap

dissin this and dissin that

and it's true now that's a matter of fact

that he knows just what you lack

 

to break out on the scene

show yourself as real mean

even though you're real lean

boy my raps are real clean

 

and your raps are kinda dirty

im still flowing when im thirty

that's the future man it is true

true as she loves color blue

 

hook

and that is how it goes

it rocks and it rolls

sucks when these assholes

go and crush my hopes

 

And why do you look at me like you can see what's inside

and how do you look at me when I'm down and somehow decide

that what you see inside isn't worth tryin to save

and stand up tramp it up go and shout and rave

 

and that's what confuses the real shit outta me

it is when I can't see what you see in me

and what I always do about it troubles me

acting like I can some how reverse entropy

thinking that some how i can have empathy

but you know that my game never been sympathy

and that's how i found out about my enemy

through learning about you and your destiny

they tryna act like they can see the fool in me

but i know you're playin girl there is no foolin me

 

so go back

an relax

just relapse

on the rack

 

goes the last thing you bother me

 

with and i know that I miffed some big opportunities

but that is all, now i ball, take advantage of my tendencies

 

to be amazing

girl im just saying

some days im blazing

and others hazing

 

and you know that star life aint all about that

you know that sometimes in life they all fall flat

now go and see what your dad says about that

and then ill tell him you know that you aint all that

 

and tell him that sometimes you win and other times you lose

 

hook

and that is how it goes

it rocks and it rolls

sucks when these assholes

go and crush my hopes