who am i

I've lost myself trying to please you

I've been doing things i said I'd never do

I tell you everyday that this just is not me

This isn't who my parents brought me up to be

My parents raised me right,

Not trying to sound judgmental,

I promise you us meeting was not accidental

You have lost sight of all the promises you made me

I want to tell you, but i cant ever make you see

I can't pretend to be whatever will make you happy

i need to prosper and find out my place in this world

i'm starting to settle and give up on my dreams

I always wanted more, wanted to live life to the extreme

i was an independent black woman who didn't need a man to complete me

but now i'm your puppet and you pull the strings to tweak me

make me feel insecure and not good enough

i try to play it cool but you always call my bluff

you see right through my poker face

I don't have another ace

no more tricks up my sleeve

I need to leave, before it's too late and i can no longer achieve

Please let me feel confident again

and love myself till the end

i hate waking up, i refuse to look in the mirror

but i need to wipe off the fog and start to see a little clearer

I'm better than this and i'm moving on

sorry to say but i'm no longer your pawn