Alone, Crazy and Lonely
• Written by Pandaemonium
[Verse 1]
Since I was a little kid
my life's been cruel.
My parents never really split,
my life, a duel.
Between the two and where to side,
its was just painful,
to see the two, and cant decide
if they were equals.
But none of that really mattered
in fact, was so easy
that made my life such a hazard
cause no one could see me.
and so I was caught in the act
Between the two big blasts
of how my family cracked
My future, in my grasps
And now im left here and im done
Couldn't breath, and I was wheezing
Nowhere left for me to run
then I had trouble reading
And I could not see
Underneath the sea
I was a clown fish
With out his anemone.
Yeah, It wasn't a joke for me
I was left in a running car
then they returned successfully
their jobs were more than far
had no college degree
was a child with huge scar
my mind replaced with insanity
[Hook]
Im talking to the people
which little or none had no equal
we don't ask for a sequel
cause our minds are filled with evil
If you're an angel
call me the devil
cause you're messing with the level
of the low
but so far that's all I know.
Better than none? Hah!
You make me laugh
I had none, cause I was fucking trash.
And I became a psychopath.
My life, written like an epitaph
through a paragraph of hate
then parents decide to separate
fuck...
[Verse 2]
At the age, sixteen
Separation was just a routine
Suicide came into thought,
maybe I should drink chlorine?
pump poison in my bloodstream?
I was disgusted
the people that I trusted
My mother was broken
My father was unspoken
My grandmother gone
And my grandfather left open.
I was left with me and me alone
Stuck in a room, my comfort zone.
The lights turned off
My mind set to roam
I decided not to scoff
about how much I hate my home
But FUCK that!
FUCK life, and FUCK suicidal.
Cause I realized that if you died then
death wasn't final.
and if it wasn't final
then what was the use
I lived through my childhood of fucking abuse.
I can live through the rest the same way
or so I thought till I heard the same fucking day
[Verse 3]
"BULLSHIT"
I said through the phone
I heard my parents were annulled
then my family was blown
into pieces of debris
Fucking hate my family
My life's a fucking tragedy
but, others much worse
A perfect family, is a fantasy
Cause every family is a curse
so listen to this verse
"All you can do is pray"
Then fucking go to church
where the devil loves to lurch
[Verse 4]
But at least my life wasnt all that bad
had a little brother that made me glad
And I pulled through thanks to him
My life was fine cross the nephilim
Made renew, with my virtues
Left with no curfew
but I urge you, encourage you
A child's life is a breakthrough
But when you try to break through it
Fuck fake lips
your words are lies with no real tips
I've made it through my kindergarten
Breezed through childhood like a garden
Now my life is fucking hardened
pull out a shield, then Im a fucking spartan.
Thank god im through the fucking burden
of family now its just me
and Im glad, im done with the bullshit
that my life had, but it makes me sad
that you didn't go through it like me and my dad.
[Hook]
Im talking to the people
which little or none had no equal
we don't ask for a sequel
cause our minds are filled with evil
If you're an angel
call me the devil
cause you're messing with the level
of the low
but so far that's all I know.
Better than none? Hah!
You make me laugh
I had none, cause I was fucking trash.
And I became a psychopath.
My life, written like an epitaph
through a paragraph of hate
then parents decide to separate...
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Pandaemonium
Member since June 26 2016