suicidal thoughts

sometimes i feel alone like no one cares

sometimes i don't know why i'm here

i really wish somebody could just be there

ever since the divorce wit my parents happened

i was never the same growing up wit just a mom and sis

didn't feel the same wit out my dad like it just didn't feel the same

i been having suicidal thoughts wanting to leave this world never wanting

to look back on the bad things in the past. i feel like i been fucking up like

its my fault, got my little sis wanting to kill her self telling her don't do it

cause you better then this but who am i to talk got myself talking that noun

since.

 

Half of the time i just be wanting to kill myself wanting myself dead and never

wanting to live in this world we called home. whats the point when we got all

violence and people killing each other for nothing i don't wanna live in that

kind of world.

 

Everyday i just keep the bad things to myself never wanting nobody to know

the real me.

people think i'm this happy fun guy when i'm really just a sad nigga just wanting

to be treated with the right amount of respect i deserve. But nobody cares so

i just keep things to myself. These suicidal thoughts just keep getting deeper

and deeper by the minute, i just want it to stop already.

 

All i really want is my dad back in the house to have the big happy family we

use to have back in the day, i feel that it be better wit him around so i could feel

happy again cause dad things haven't been the same with out you around.

Just need you back dad.