Drifting away

crying in my room so used to it, dying behind closed doors felling gloom

listening to music on my phone, always alone

so unknown not even my family knows me

if they only knew they'd disown me

have a little sister that adores me, she's all that drives me

all i wanna see, more than anything i need to flee

see I'm so sick of being the odd man out, the one no one knows about

i could just scream and shout expel all the air out of my lungs until i blackout

feeling so misplaced how does no one see it, so desperate internally

dead, makes me sick i wanna vomit, take a ship of rockets a rocket ship

made outta lead, leave and just forget that i know them, that i met

and knew such ignorance and bigotry such egoism and hatred

putting up my defense , it's constant, need to be bigot free, externally

hence they don't even realize they're hurting me, i need to express this

it's gonna be the end of me, falling deeper and deeper the road ahead

getting steeper, a car hit me, didn't use the blinker

so now i'm just laying here victim of war, he just kept driving

went far far away, he didn't even hesitate no delay

i'm in such a fucked up state, physically here i'll stay

while my mind drift's away, but i'm not gonna pray

i was never the religious type, i'll just drift away in my thoughts no big hype

 

 

days fleeting, getting hurt around every corner

slowly fading, put me in a casket take me to the coroner

never ending, made to feel like a foreigner

thoughts bending, walking through the corridor

this is never gonna end, i'm a defeated warrior

 

they just leave me on the floor, got a tear in my eye, i'll wipe it my myself

don't need no help, at least i'm human you're all just robotic prototypes

makes me wanna take a sniper and just snipe your metallic parts down

go ahead bribe the pied piper, you're just empty creatures in diapers

like a virus always going around, inflicting pain without a fight

i don't see the end in sight, maybe i should just end it right

bite a bullet through my skull i just might, trying to stay strong

i'm right i know they're wrong, but they don't understand the pain

they're inflicting on me, letting some of it out through this song

for every car that hits me, i go to the bar and have a drink till it makes me

think that i belong, that this all fits me, but the hits just keep on coming

drinking's my way of running, cause my heart's burning

while my mind's fuming with rage, it keeps getting stronger with age

i should probably stage my own death, my life's a show

nearing it's curtain call, looking at the sky, time's frozen, beginning to snow

ambulance approaching, life waving bye bye

everyday lines of poison ingested, with hatred infested, it's all so slow

they just drove right past me, might as well throw in the towel

story of my life i know

 

 

days fleeting, getting hurt around every corner

slowly fading, put me in a casket take me to the coroner

never ending, made to feel like a foreigner

thoughts bending, walking through the corridor

this is never gonna end, i'm a defeated warrior