Sad rap

Everyday All I see is pain and hate

Who else in this world would debate?

My mental state has subsided I still hesitate,

I only write for you to relate,

If you don't that's okay,

But this is for the kids who everyday just wanna get away,

Let's journey through my mind as a kid I,

would try and stop my mum from getting high,

Never wanted to go home,

Because I realised what happened was bad,

Really never knew what it was like to have a dad,

When mum would get a boyfriend they would fight

I'd be up all night,

Thinking as I reminisce am I the reason why,

10 years old all I could do was cry,

In the end no one really noticed,

But in my head im fucked no one can keep a promise

No one can say there honest,

My loyalty runs fucking deeper then a promise,

I mix up my words these days when I speak,

That's mainly from the drugs yes I did lose reach,

I'm telling it through this speech,

When I see myself now for my kids there's so much to teach,

So this is what i preach.

 

 

 

If i die young,

I want to die with a billion,

I wonder what's gonna happen to my girl and my mum ,

did I try, did I fight ,

did I do what I had to do to provide,

Maybe not,

Maybe i did,

I'm only 17 want a family and kid,

I know most kids out there these days,

Can find a reason to live always,

Gotta hide gotta fight out creeping every night,

That aint the life,