chills.

have you ever looked upon the mind of a suicidal guy who's afraid to die?

if not that's fine.

i'll be your guide.

imma take you for a ride.

it's about this 17yr old guy who dies every time he closes his eyes.

but it sends chills down his damn spine.

cause he doesn't understand his existence.

as well as not knowing what lays beyond nonexistence.

he's trying his best to resist these thought of life just being about regrets.

he regrets the fact that he's lied to everyone in his life.

he's going through a tough time in his life, no time to decide, no times out, don't know if he's gonna make it out.

he goes though these spells like one moment he's that guy everyone like and is having a grand 'ol time.

then the next he's pissed off, everything could tick him off.

but most of all how he can go from feeling like he belongs to the next second feeling like everyone would be better off if he was gone.

now everyone listen this isn't a cry for help.

nor is it a grab for your attention .

more like me trying to fight my affliction.