Battle Scars (Rewrite)

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I fight the pain with all my strength so why does it keep returning

Even though I keep living

even though I keep learning

the wheels in my head only keep turning

back over and over

same crap every time

I scream and I yell but I'm still stuck in this slime

the more I claw the more covered in grime

I'm becoming it

I'm to numb

theres no emotions to be found

no magic or potion will ever coxed me out

of this padded cell with no door

they've been to many wars

and drugs going in

nothings coming out

im in doubt that theres anything there anymore

that thought didn't used to scare me before

but so much has changed

from the old me I've become estranged

after depression normal life seems strange

every time I look at the wall I still feel the same

as i did than and the scars remain

all over my body in hard lumps

I cover them in long sleeves

bitch I'm over that hump

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I remember the feeling of spitting my veins open

the white bubble of flesh before my blood stared pouring

than how tough it was to stop it up

once it finally started

even though its all over I don't think I'm truly done

It should be fucking over relapsing is no fun

theres nowhere to run

So I just stay stuck in a rut

I still sometimes wanna stab myself in the gut

My rhymes still show this pain

my friends think I'm a nut case

but I know that there are other people who

feel and have felt the same pain

that I do

I know what their going through

If your one of them and your listening I know what your going through

take my hand baby

I know your not crazy

I know your not an attention whore I know your not lazy

I know how hard you cry because you think maybe

your alone in this world

through some fault of your own

for a long time that was only feeling I had known

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look at the demons facing you in the mirror

oh no, you scream, I know that you fear your

mind over anything cause its what put you hear

but once you conquer that than there is nothing left to fear

I don't know what that feels like cause I'm not yet there

I'm still a deformed rectangle, not yet square

but I can hold my head up high knowing I'm almost there

when I look for the strength to continue these battle scars stare

back at me

though they no longer bleed they'll never disappear

but now its time to focus on the wall thats right here

I've spent to much time with my back to it i fear

a wise man told me

that if I was about to hit that wall than to do it

he said to cock back and put my all into it

thanks, Slim, now I know that's what I needed to be doing

and when I come out the other side i know my scars will follow me through it

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