Last Seen

I check my phone again; the screen is far too bright.

I’m there when people need me; but who is here tonight?

I send another text and hope the words sound right.

No answer comes; I hold the phone a bit too tight.

My heart feels tight each time I watch them turn and leave;

I try to love myself; but this silence makes me grieve.

I wish i can disappear, and nobody knows my name.

Stuck with a weather vane, that keeps changing in vain.

I wish to be remembered, in these cold days of december

And cools down my ember, i wish i was a member

But I’ve never felt I belong in this time or this place;

No matter where I choose to go, my loneliness gives chase.

I hate to live with shades, and also to be with people

Being with both is hurtin' me, they gnaw my back like a weevil

I've got this hole in my soul, like a gap under the door

Where the cold keeps entering, I’ve never felt the warmth

That’s why i dug my own forest, and got my own woods

To light my own fire, and pick the suitable fruits

I’ve wished for some kindness and maybe a friend or two.

You were a friend to everyone, but who showed up for you?

Still, I won’t cry over milk I never poured

I’m rich because I have myself, losing me leaves them poor.