The Fool

I stand at the edge of the building,

Watching the world rebuilding,

Tryna stay calm, keep everything in perspective,

Tell myself anything to shut out labels of 'defective',

But there's no time to be introspective, unraveling,

Disappear suffering for a sec, irrespective of consequence,

Steer my confidence into this performance, belief of permanence,

I'ma interfere with the atmosphere for just a moment.

 

I'ma defy God.

I'ma drop.

So high.

 

Somehow I survived the fall,

Broke the broken pieces of the protocol,

But lost in a labyrinth of shifting walls,

Outlawed an anarchist by the natural law:

The amethyst I've known faded into black smoke

Like a home razed 'rightfully' by the protagonist,

Spitefully painting me the antagonist,

Really was a pacifist but you were the catalyst

Who made me like this, graffiti strewn on heart's landmarks,

The stingy call me upstart, the greedy call me bastard.

Fuck 'em. Cuz

 

I'ma defy God.

I'ma drop.

So high.

 

5 years gone past and it's no longer me that they want,

Not even outcast, just an overcast they know will pass,

Dysfunctional moral compass, yet still functional thoughts,

Takes out the spray can as an afterthought,

But it's all for naught, empty's empty and I can't spare a twenty,

Neither risk being caught by the sentries, bound to the obelisk,

So subconsciously I've 'ready reclimbed the building,

Consciously realised they've sublimed their rule,

Mistimed defiance, now the only joker's on the vestibule,

Cut off the escape route, so now deep inside the whirlpool

I admit I am The Fool, ridicule the ridicule and all misrule,

Minuscule compared to Fate, nonetheless dared play chess,

Though no success, final checkmate flared unprepared,

Slight hesitation, thoughts of reconciliation

Now that's taken root, it shatters determination,

And suddenly I can't refute again the absolute.

Fuck.

 

'ready defied God,

'ready dropped,

So high.

(So high.)

(So high.)