Spotlight was on me

 

 

Caged in conscience

head full of monsters

bath full of electronics

lost in logic ,I can be toxic

labels I'm boxed in it

Negative surrounds me even when I link with the positive

Never on top of it, No I am opposite,

Hold this space but it's like there's no one watchin it

I was silenced as a girl told to "Put a sock in it"

crying for attention but would never say things just for the shock of it

 

 

 

All eyes on me, spotlight went on me

spotlight was on me

in a cage full of monkey's, circus tent fell on top of me

lies they spread now there makin a mockery

me and my demons tied tight but it's not a real bond to me

 

Hate it when the spotlight be on me

always be on me

turn the whole world against me

My mama still be fond of me

still be fond of me even when the spotlight is on me

All eyes upon me when the spotlights up on me

 

 

Forced to be extroverted, personality diverted

Always hanged out in the wrong friendship groups had to get reasserted

I learnt it, Used to be a hermit

They think cos I'm gay I'm tryna get everyone converted

Bridges they tried to cross

I had to burn it , they weren't worth fit

At the crossroads was a turnin

Had to choose a different direction to head in

Cause do you succeed when you got no believers in your section?

And all of your past demon's are present

 

 

 

All eyes on me, spotlight went on me

spotlight was on me

in a cage full of monkey's, circus tent fell on top of me

lies they spread now there makin a mockery

me and my demons tied tight but it's not a real bond to me

 

Hate it when the spotlight be on me

always be on me

turn the whole world against me

My mama still be fond of me

still be fond of me even when the spotlight is on me

All eyes upon me when the spotlights up on me

 

 

My problems started from a young age my life was never normal

Havin nightmares the ghost of my past paranormal

Drink up mix the liquor with the cordial

Think up always listening to the voices in my head like an audio

Swear my life was destined for the trenches before ,designed for jumpin fences

My thoughts are kind of crazy my thoughts are kind of wild

But what are you supposed to do when all you are is a child

Can't really remember that last time that I smiled

 

 

Do you speak up? but no one will listen

Do you seize up and try to keep your distance?

All these traumatic years have affected my brain left an imprint

To over react to it is my only instinct

So call me dramatic so call me barbaric

bein emotional and cryin is the only way I can handle it

I get why you think I'm pathetic for the way that I act

not even I'm a fan of it I just need some help tryna manage it

 

 

 

All eyes on me, spotlight went on me

spotlight was on me

in a cage full of monkey's, circus tent fell on top of me

lies they spread now there makin a mockery

me and my demons tied tight but it's not a real bond to me

 

Hate it when the spotlight be on me

always be on me

turn the whole world against me

My mama still be fond of me

still be fond of me even when the spotlight is on me

All eyes upon me when the spotlights up on me

 

 

All eyes on me, spotlight went on me

spotlight was on me

in a cage full of monkey's, circus tent fell on top of me

lies they spread now there makin a mockery

me and my demons tied tight but it's not a real bond to me

 

Hate it when the spotlight be on me

always be on me

turn the whole world against me

My mama still be fond of me

still be fond of me even when the spotlight is on me

All eyes upon me when the spotlights up on me

 

 

Imagine me, Autistic me

undiagnosed I'm out numbered statistically

Teacher assistants but none of them assisting me

Only because there are students "more neurodivergent" than me

"She's just shy"

"It's just a phase"

Don't ask why it's not okay

Every conversation like a script out of a play

I go mute my voice hides away

I wanna make friends but not today

 

 

They want me to change I say I can't

They say there's no such thing as "I can't "

it's showin toxic positivity at it's biggest

How do you suppose you'll remain realistic with that image

 

They want me to change I say I can't

They say there's no such thing as "I can't "

it's showin toxic positivity at it's biggest

How do you suppose you'll remain realistic with that image

 

 

 

All eyes on me, spotlight went on me

spotlight was on me

in a cage full of monkey's, circus tent fell on top of me

lies they spread now there makin a mockery

me and my demons tied tight but it's not a real bond to me

 

Hate it when the spotlight be on me

always be on me

turn the whole world against me

My mama still be fond of me

still be fond of me even when the spotlight is on me

All eyes upon me when the spotlights up on me