never. by Austin Lance p2
• Written by LyricalX
'cause i cussed the fuckin' coach out
and bitch i rarely ever go out
all this shit i throw out
and i don't know where to go now
well, now you know now
and you seem so content
with your new damn boyfriend
i pray to god, say amen
and i fucked up, i'm stuck, i can't repent
and i did not mean to offend, that's not what i meant
i came to resent all the shit that you said
that be stuck in my head
and prayin' for my death
so bitch i'll be dead
'cause i be seein' red
and i tried to make amends
but this shit is torment
and bitch, i trasncend
and these hoes say, "no offense"
then begin to make fun of me
hoes i apprehend
and i quench my damn thirst
and these hoes be drenched
in my fuckin' blood now
'cause i blew my brains out
and slit my damn throat
'cause you want me to be dead
so i granted your wish
but i did not fuckin' die
i am in the hospital, alive but not dead
and you kept comin' in just to fuckin' laugh
and you played pretend to keep me comin' back
and will it end? i'm not sure about that
again and again, but bitch, i'll keep comin' back-ack
never been the type to fall in love
i thought true love would somehow come
but i was young and i was dumb
and my heart she took as i tried to run
and my heart has broken
that's why i can't trust
so what was the point of this shit?
my heart be broken beyond anything you can fix
and i wanna be fixed
but you cannot fix this
and i fucking hate life
so fuck all of this
and i got all the dough
i got the glock and the blick
got the mac-10 with me
and you know i'll be with
my gang and shit
they my family
i consider them my family
and i fucked up my mentality
is this even reality?
and this shit's a tragedy
everybody be dyin' tragically
and i hate and i'm sad to be
austin lance, a catastrophe
and bitch, i'll be dead, don't be mad at me
hopin' you'll send a damn text back at me
but that's my imagination, i'm so unhappy
and i just want you to send the damn addy
so what was the point? takin' adderall
i used to tell myself i'd never fall
but here i am i've fallen
and i've fallen i'm falling, oh
my name is austin lance, yeah
i've been groomed since i was ten, yeah
and i thought it was love, think again, yeah
and she had me fucked up once again, yeah
and she keeps playing with my damn heart
and i didn't know this from the damn start
she left me so scarred
with bruises and marks
'cause she done raped me
and i didn't realize
and i never told my parents
yeah that shit be so apparant
and i'm steady recoverin'
maybe one day she will hear this
rappin' be my only outlet, yeah
hopefully she ain't out yet, out yet
no, not yet, not yet
