PARANOID
• Written by koolaidman
# Dia Beatz
**[Intro]**
Yeah…
Violin cryin’ in the dead of night
Piano playin’ what I keep inside
Tell everybody that I’m doin’ fine
But every time I close my eyes—
I lose my mind
**[Verse 1]**
I’ve been paranoid, watchin’ my surroundings
Heart beat fast when the room gets crowded
Everybody close, but I still feel alone
Too many switched when I needed them most
Three in the mornin’, staring at my phone
Reading old messages I should’ve let go
You said you loved me, said you wouldn’t change
Now every new love starts feelin’ the same
I got trust issues deep in my blood
Every time I open up, I get cut
So I keep one foot out when you get close
‘Cause the ones that I loved hurt me the most
Tell me you’re different, I wanna believe it
My heart says stay, but my mind keeps leavin’
Tryna move forward, but something pulls back
One little lie and I’m stuck in the past
**[Chorus]**
I’m paranoid
I don’t know who’s real
I don’t know if it’s love
Or just how you make me feel
Back to the wall
Heart under lock
Every time I trust somebody
Something gets lost
I’m paranoid
I’m awake all night
Fightin’ these thoughts
While I’m turnin’ off the lights
If I give you my heart
Please don’t destroy
The little that’s left
I’m paranoid
**[Verse 2]**
Violin speak when I can’t find words
Piano keys play every time it hurts
I keep my pain underneath my shirt
Smile for the world while I’m feelin’ the worst
I overthink every pause in your text
Wonderin’ who you’re with, what happens next
I know it ain’t fair, but I’ve been through hell
People say forever, then leave you yourself
So when you say, “Trust me,” I freeze inside
‘Cause I heard those words with a thousand lies
I wanna give you everything I got
But memories tell me maybe I should not
I’m tryna change, tryna loosen my grip
Stop expecting’ love to abandon the ship
But every goodbye left a permanent void
Now even good love got me paranoid
**[Bridge]**
Maybe I don’t gotta run this time
Maybe your heart ain’t like the ones behind
Maybe these scars don’t decide my life
Maybe I can finally get this right
Just stay beside me
When my head gets loud
Don’t disappear
When the lights go out
**[Final Chorus]**
I’m paranoid
But I’m learnin’ to trust
Maybe real love
Doesn’t turn into dust
Back from the wall
Unlockin’ my heart
I’m still afraid
But I gotta somewhere start
I’m paranoid
But I’m done with the nights
Where I fight with myself
‘Til the morning light
If I give you my heart
Please don’t destroy
The little that’s left…
I’m paranoid
**[Outro]**
Violin fade
Piano slow
Maybe one day
I’ll finally let go
Still hear the fear
Still hear the noise
But I’m learning to breathe
When I’m paranoid
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koolaidman
Member since June 17 2024