Second life

Life gets me starring like i cant see

Im declaring how deep my mind been lately

Trailing in a creep, eyes glaring peeling seized in

my nail feeling like their bleeding

Theyve been sinking in my skin since shit got heavy

Craving meals replacing em with pills

 

Im crawling uphill no use of feet

They feel overused i mean abuse from home to the streets

Ive never seen how to succeed yet my family is the example to see

I just lay awake, have i been a mistake?

My birth came too late?

Was i a prayer answered?

Faith faded after trouble came first im cursed

Life got so hazardous it became my minds standards

 

From being told worst things than go play in traffic

After id go pursuing things claimings like i aim to carreer my magic

Dispeared after tragedies arrived inside my sisters steps dads fake mansion lies

Bum ties he slumped around all night tragic he got throwned out the crib on a slide

 

Fucking broke, snorting coke, buddy my roller bades glowed

I rolled them over where u fell over as id roll over in my bed

Image of them appeared as eyelids blackened shutting down energies dead

my eyes prepped as my shoulder was soar, wall now holed,

stashed it with something old Oh that fridge fitted fusho,

damn motherfucking doodoo

If i could i would voodoo doll yo ass a new rough road

 

Maybe prison i dont know i was praying shit would stop but no

You lubbed up, rubbed stunt another jump, skip mums love

Christmas is done, gifts pass em up, enjoy things dont save one

So when ma come home you left her strucked i saw her gut bloat

 

I hated the punk i dreamed of gunning him with slugs

Fucking his brains slumped, target practicing using imagination

As i straighten my aiming everytime i went once a month

Tried to cut his face after i saved a printing of a photo to

Shoot, destroy, turn into a ball soak it in rum to light it

Rip his shit the prick deserved every bit of it

Hate speech i had many loose script, shit to say if he chooses to tandrum me sick

Id kick rocks quick, floppy disks thrown to slit troats every minute

"I don²t give a shit" written on everyone of them cd's

Feel squeezed as i pinch yo eyes yall be hearing screams

But hey he made me! Taste of yo own medicine if youd ask me

Cigarettes for free when they caught me id neglected and selected to keep makin steam

Smoke heavily and now my whole pulled lungs are stretching as i breath

Finally Doctors blame my second life for scarring tissues thats keeping me free

 

Habits cant always stick you see, yo health is temporairy,

elites keep products from the populations reach

Many of us it seems we meant to live longer than shown and to be honest i feel ive been here the longest

Souls never coming along as clueless, gut directs me like shadys due list

White shady pope next to black style Zucchetto im trying to rise as a cleanest

As possible what i mean is i want positive thriving speeches not always negative preeches

Yall leeches and ion got the patience to even put up with you geeks genz

 

Medically crazy medications repeatidly change fluids

Yo brains loosing yall complain yet proff screens

You choosing picking up cocaine so dudes fuck off me

Yall puppies on ma leg id drag you to my tub part of me

Hate it thought the shit we aft to do to have shit done

So peace can resurface rum makes me wanna brew this

Fuck i knew i shouldnt refuel but shi- thanks strain, i guess im used to it...