REALLY WANNA

Really wanna die, I just really wanna die

 

I gave my heart, you let it die

 

Really wanna cry, I just really wanna cry

 

So tell me why you're in my mind

 

Rent-free, rent-free

 

Baby, come and end me

 

My heart been feel so empty

 

I'm fucked up, too damn petty

 

Too damn petty, too damn petty

 

 

 

Uh, cloudy, cloudy, it's cloudy, and it's storming

 

Everybody just gon' doubt me, what 'bout me? Global warming

 

You're nothing without me, fuck this performance

 

Tell me, is you recording? This yo' last damn warning

 

I just can't support it, nobody be supportive

 

Tired of supporting, no thoughts be forming

 

Guess I'm thoughtless, thot-less, wake up in the morning

 

I ain't really got shit, don't got it, I'm not important

 

So you can leave me be, bitch, stop returning

 

You tryna be with me, unfortunately, I ignore it

 

This shit I'm ignoring, your body I explore it

 

Your body I'm exploring, feel like Norman

 

Everybody fake they always performing

 

My shit raw it not flawless it got flaws I'm high-scoring

 

It's pouring, boarding schools, my heart beyond restoring

 

So don't try to restore it, I'm sporting

 

T-shirts, jerseys, the rain just be roaring

 

Hear the thunder, I'm done fucking reforming

 

Left dormant, never conforming, I'll be high and soaring

 

Them skies, my heart be warring

 

Between you or me, my views are distorting

 

Distorted, it's horrid, it's torrid, run to the forest

 

They swarming over me, they sleeping and snoring

 

Hoarding, I'm hoarding, bitches fake as Hell, I just storm in

 

Fucked up already, wish you well, everyone be adoring

 

Everybody but myself, my vision is warping

 

And I feel like I'm morphing, miss your love in the mornings

 

My Glocky be so enormous, I rip out your organs

 

Fuck them laws and enforcements, you can't force it

 

Stop forcing, no comment, fuck being formal

 

No importance, hop in the Foreign, I got fortune

 

Of money, my fortunes, your misfortunes

 

Got new Air Jordans, them bitches, they orbit

 

What did this bullshit even warrant? You're boring

 

You got no warrant, informants, endorsements

 

Won't endorse it, got a whole assortment

 

Of drugs for you to pick out, my life slowly shortens

 

I think 'bout you all the time, a torrent

 

Of slurs and shit, my love you gon' forfeit

 

I absorb it, absorbing your pain, conformists

 

I'm fucked up, yeah, do this shit like a hornet

 

My horns grow, I really feel like you hate me, sing this damn chorus

 

Immortality, immortal, obstacle courses

 

Natural causes, evil damn forces, painted this portrait

 

Of what we used to be and coulda been, can we get this sorted

 

The fuck out 'fore I lose my mind? I don't wan' be no orphan

 

I love my parents dearly, my mama ironclad, Chuck Norris

 

I'm getting dough, yeah, your plans have been thwarted

 

So morbid, so morbid, I know these bitches wan' ban abortion

 

Fuck your views, bitch, I sit by the orchid

 

And observe it, euphoric, corset, I had to divorce it

 

Reality is mad at me, these bitches want storage

 

Historic, babygirl, this is the world we was born in

 

And I know you been mourning

 

Tell me, bitch, where your sources?

 

I'm just being honest, it makes me vomit

 

Some bitches not the warmest, kermit

 

Hermit, whatchu on 'bout? Life ain't always got warmness

 

My heart you tore it, my heart you wore it

 

My heart is not for you, it was never even yours, bitch

 

And you broke me beyond fixing, and now I just mourn it

 

'Cause I'm fucked up as hell, so here is my portion

 

Uh, these bitches they orbit, I built up this fortress

 

I gave you my fortunes, now you mad you ain't been rewarded

 

It's me versus these hoes, your source is

 

What exactly? I go madly, you're so fucking gorgeous

 

Reinforce it, you're calling for reinforcements

 

Tryna contain me and blame me and tame me

 

I surround myself by corpses, rituals, rituals, light your fucking torches

 

Fuck you fake ass motherfuckers, that's why your parents divorcing

 

Divorces, join forces, special forces, my Porsche is

 

In the back of my garage, uh, I'm remorseless

 

I kill bitches all the time, uh, it's abhorrent

 

But it's what I do, I ain't heartless, just can't control it

 

So gorgeous, blow it way outta proportion

 

What else do you need? Uh, she doin' extortion

 

Tryna extort it outta me, I'm forging

 

My pain and misery, yeah, I forge it

 

Them bitches they dissin' on me, I record it

 

You've been recorded, you want an award, bitch?

 

Here's your reward, bitch!

 

 

 

Really wanna die, I just really wanna die

 

I gave my heart, you let it die

 

Really wanna cry, I just really wanna cry

 

So tell me why you're in my mind

 

Rent-free, rent-free

 

Baby, come and end me

 

My heart been feel so empty

 

I'm fucked up, too damn petty

 

Too damn petty, too damn petty

 

 

 

Kiss my ass, you won't get my ass, you've been reported

 

But I'm scared to report shit so I never report it

 

Them bitches I don't know why they hate me but they do

 

And I gave you my heart and you broke it on day 2, uh

 

So fuck what we had, I hate you

 

And I'll let my fucking demons take you

 

I tried my fucking best to tame you

 

And I couldn't tame you or even save you

 

'Cause some of us fucking need saved, too

 

I gave you all I had, bitch, you said I betrayed you

 

You said I played you but I didn't, I'm on my way to

 

Hell, so don't come to me, uh, this shit is take two

 

And I know you hate my ass, you full of so much hate, too

 

And I just want the cash, the racks, the stacks, even if it breaks you

 

'Cause you can kiss my ass and eat my ass, eat it fast

 

Lord, I hate you

 

I hope you fucking die someday, I'll die one day, too

 

Kurt Cobain you, you blow out your brains? There goes my brains, too

 

And I know I can't save you but I'ma try and try

 

'Cause I still love you and you knew that they knew

 

So why you tryna leave me behind? I saved you

 

Or at least.. I thought I did, uh

 

You want money, you want bitches to pay you

 

I wanna get paid, too

 

But I want your love first of all, I pray you

 

Get what you want but not all at once, may you

 

Fucking love me for a whole month? Attention they drew

 

Got my Glocky 'case a bitch wanna play you

 

You done broke my heart but I gave you

 

A_ second fucking chance, I done forgave you

 

You still broke my heart, stabbed it with a blade, too

 

Baby, may you fuck me for the night? Not all heroes wear capes, dude

 

'Cause I just want true love, beat me up, but then I came to

 

Realized you're my damn soulmate, too

 

But you toxic demonic abusive it's not amusing, I gotta obey you

 

'Cause if I disobey you I'll die, I made new

 

Friends but then I lost 'em all, throwing shade to

 

My ex-gf, her friends too, I guess I cannot sway you

 

But babygirl, you hold a special place in my heart, I could never trade you

 

Phone in your hand, watching Tiktok, if you fuck 'round

 

You can get sprayed too, you fake as hell but I'm fake, too

 

I just want you in my life, the way you

 

Do me so wrong but love me too, what overcame you?

 

And you live in my mind, every day you

 

Live in my mind, in my head, but I'm afraid you

 

Might hate me and try to break me, had to shake you

 

To make ya snap out of it, then ya came to

 

And babygirl, I could never make you

 

Do what I want you to do, but God made you

 

Uh, you my soulmate, wanna be soulmates, too?

 

'Cause I gave you my life, yet I'm afraid to

 

Admit that maybe you're toxic, you with the same dudes

 

I told you not to be with 'cause they bad friends

 

It got me about to say, "Ooh"

 

She put on her ballet shoes, they wanna flay you

 

I wanna fly, so let me fly, I lend aid to

 

You, you, you, I'll always aid you

 

 

 

Really wanna die, I just really wanna die

 

I gave my heart, you let it die

 

Really wanna cry, I just really wanna cry

 

So tell me why you're in my mind

 

Rent-free, rent-free

 

Baby, come and end me

 

My heart been feel so empty

 

I'm fucked up, too damn petty

 

Too damn petty, too damn petty