reality is a myth

 

Scrolling at 2 AM, blue light on my face

Phone buzzing in my hand, seven unread, can't erase

My bedroom walls are closing in or maybe opening wide

Can't tell if I'm breathing here or if I've already died

My world turned into a movie, looking cinematic

My girlfriend staring while my vision turned to static

 

 

I'm dissociated, suffocating slow

Smile on my face but nobody knows

I'm dissociated, fading away

Lost in the crowd, can't find my way

I'm dissociated, that's just how it goes

Smile on my face but nobody knows

 

 

My therapist asked me why I look off into the distance

I said this world is of zero subsistence

She said that avoidance is just runnin' away

But runnin' feels safer than stayin' today

I had a good week, then the darkness crept in

Like a ghost in my chest, feeling nothing within

I'm laughin' with friends but I'm somewhere else

Trapped in my head, a prisoner in myself

 

 

I'm dissociated, suffocating slow

Smile on my face but nobody knows

I'm dissociated, fading away

Lost in the crowd, can't find my way

I'm dissociated, that's just how it goes

Smile on my face but nobody knows

 

 

Every word feels heavy on my tongue

Every room spacing out, every bell that's getting rung

Cant tell if things are real, getting hard to prove,

Tell me there's a reason, tell me there's proof

 

 

I'm dissociated, suffocating slow

Smile on my face but nobody knows

I'm dissociated, fading away

Lost in the crowd, can't find my way

I'm dissociated, that's just how it goes

Smile on my face but you'll never know