Civil War

My mother asked why I write and the answer is therapy

Sometimes I go through shit and nobody can be there for me

Killing the things that I love, murky water erases clarity

All these constant wars in my head makes it get close to burying me

 

Taking over my life, I can't do a single thing about it

Everything that it takes adds another muscle to the body

I've been running away but I got to snap the fuck up out it

Coward talking yesterday, my tomb is built up on a mountain

 

Grim has been chasing me like "Boy you weak, when are you gonna stop?"

Bro's beating my ass up, cleaning the floor with me like I'm a mop

My life was so fucking green but scattering red is hard to stop

Insider threats are hard because ain't nobody calling the cops

 

I used to be normal but it's been a while since I was that way

Honestly the last time was probably way back in second grade

Never thought about nothing like "How do you fucking live this way?"

But I guess that's one step closer to me being thrown into my grave

 

(Hook)

I don't get love from nobody, so nothing will ever be real

It's hard when you're just one body because you don't know how to feel

Alone with my conscious trying to create a little repeal

And then Top Dog likes to come in and talking shit like "What's your deal?"

 

(Verse)

If there was one word I could relate with then it would be struggle

There ain't no such thing as the hate for me never wanting to hustle

Ever since the Civil War started the load been on the double

Surrender is not an option or your world will start to crumble

 

Battle still is going on but I'm a junkie like Barney Gumble

Had to give myself a little break or else I'll be in trouble

Can't go fighting wars if I will go out and get fucking humbled

Gotta stay alive just to thrive, this asshole's getting pummeled

 

Imma make a change in my ways, hitting this shit, bloody knuckles

Get ya in the jaw, knocking your ass out and then your knees buckle

I put you on the mat, ref counting ten, so much for a tussle

Ain't no teeth left in your mouth, now you will be stuck with that muzzle

 

(Hook)

I don't get love from nobody, so nothing will ever be real

It's hard when you're just one body because you don't know how to feel

Alone with my conscious trying to create a little repeal

And then Top Dog likes to come in and talking shit like "What's your deal?"