Holy war

Rejection, always scared of rejection, I I fade into the black with this depression.

I stay waking up just to stare at the ceiling, man, I hate this feeling.

The feeling of having no meaning, my heart is steadily beating, my lungs are heavily breathing.

I'm hyperventilating with these feelings. Do I need, do I need, do I need some weed or speed,

to over eat? a new meet and greet? Something to validate this inflated ego!

I always feel like people are better off without me, and that voice hits me, loudly

Are these smiles all fake, when they give me bread, are they Judas? for heavens sake.

when I'm hearing these lies, I'm wide awake, when I should be dealing with this headache.

 

A holy war, this a holy war

saying I'm better off dead, I'm better left on read!

This a holy war, don't believe it. x2

 

Don't believe those thoughts, they just thots.

It's a holy war, a holy war

Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh yeah

 

I feel so sick to my stomach, have I made so much progress just to get stuck,

Looking to my past and I feel super dirty like a slut, fell out of line, that's ten hut.

I've never been a man from the military but if a man gets in my face, then I can get real scary.

These thoughts turn me to a small guy with scary thoughts, it has me spacey like an astronaut.

little do I know that Iv'e been blood bought, I don't have to be perfect since my savior is perfect

Most of the time I feel wrecked but God intersected when he resurrected.

His love was love was perfected, speaking on love,

I love how this girl says she loves me, its lovely,

she doesn't understand how I'm rusty, slash musty.

So terrified that I'm gonna mess up this relationship and she's gon quit.

But evidence are relevant to this ship that's gon sail, we will prevail!

 

A holy war, this a holy war

saying I'm better off dead, I'm better left on read!

This a holy war, don't believe it. x2

 

Don't believe those thoughts, they just thots.

It's a holy war, a holy war

Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh yeah