Home Away From Home

Home away from home,

Got me losing all my sanity.

Only place my mind could chill,

Now it's took for an eternity.

I hate that I can't call,

But you clearly planned it out this way.

I'm glad I ditched it all,

But I clearly miss it desperately.

 

I was fuckin' witchu heavily,

Got really close to the family.

We all agreed that God sent me,

To see what other eyes can't see.

I hate that I can't help you now,

But you aint care when I left town.

It never really made me frown,

But you was smilin' like a clown.

 

I satisfied your wants and needs,

I kept us going steadily.

I had some problems, we all seen.

But that don't mean it was just me.

No one knew what's behind the scenes,

They ask me "A.J., whatchu mean?"

I wanna say we fought daily,

But somehow it's just in between.

 

I made mistakes, you made mistakes.

Difference is, I ain't complain.

It was real, now its in my brain.

Fuckin' witchu, it destroyed some things.

And clearly you dont feel the same,

I was there when you went insane.

I guess that I, set myself aflame.

Cuz I really could've, just quit the fuckin' game.

I never really should've, just fought to try n stay.

When I really woulda just left to keep my sane.

And I cant just sit and contemplate,

Gon' make me think of my mistakes.

 

Its just some shit I cant unsee,

It's almost like I'll neva break free.

Keep playin', I'll just go baby.

Just take my shit and beat ya feet.

I'll start over, and be debt free.

I can't keep acting all lonely.

They'll see and think that it's just me,

I can't have that I'll search the sea.

 

Home away from home,

Lost for human eyes to see.

Only place that I could feel,

Now it's good as fuckin' dead to me.

I hate that you ain't call,

But you clearly made your mind that day.

You dont really miss it all,

But you claim to in a clever way.

 

I was fuckin' with the day to day,

But our bond was like some fragile clay.

I cant believe that I cant say,

What you did was suck a fuckin' shame.

Sucks that I cant help you pay,

For all the things you need today.

But you made it clear you hate my face,

Now I'm strugglin' with how much it weighs.

 

I kept involved with the family,

More than you ever tried to be.

Your mom was like a mom to me.

Your dad was just like my dead beat.

I can't even see it all,

My vision clouded with the Fog.

Maybe I was just dead wrong,

Or maybe you're where you belong.

 

I hit the breaks,

You drove the stake.

Drove it through my fuckin' brain.

Can't think, I feel insane.

God so help me, I'll blow my brains,

On your porch ima watch your face.

Watch you lose what you cant replace.

Cuz you never really should've took me through that chase.

When you really could've just left without a trace.

I really would've just staying inside my line.

And I cant just sit and contemplate,

Gon' make me think of my mistakes.

 

It's just some shit I can't unsee,

It's almost like I'll neva break free.

Keep playin', I'll just go baby.

Just take my shit and beat ya feet.

I'll start over and be debt free,

I cant keep acting all lonely.

They'll see and think that it's just me,

I can't have that I'll search the sea.