Aria

November 9th 2025

What I would have gave to be in that hospital room looking in those eyes

Beautiful and bright so full of life

The way you smile that energy just spreads through the room

I wanna squeeze you to death but not literally just so much love it’s that sister in me I guess

I swear I planned for you more than mom went through more stress than I ever rest

Because as the older sister it’s my job to protect and had to make sure you came out to a world that was ready to embrace you and if they can’t I’m twisting necks

Back when I thought you were a boy cuz mom was sure you were before you came into this world

Mom made me a deal that could only fill a sister with so much joy

Mom said I could name you but it would be her choice if you were a girl

So that’s the story on how I thought you’d be an Elijah

Can you believe mom wanted to name you Mariah?

Your sister Ariel is close to how you got your name Aria

Before you were even born my little princess I was so scared

I was already attached you gave me the title of being an older sister again in the most unexpected time I wasn’t prepared

Mom was doings drugs and you had some in your system but princess I was always there

To make sure you came out healthy you were the only thing for me to care

I thought mom could do it take care of you I had these dreams now they’re just some ghost prayers

I know it was selfish and another family had to take you but it was no fair

Never even got to hold you

Didn’t even get to know you

Sister love can’t even show you

Lotta tears and arguing for you

I know that another family will love you

But not the way that I love you because that type of love can’t be taught it’s the type that comes from you

I’m grateful for the pictures I got but how the fuck can I live with the fact that Ima lose years of your life and people who aren’t your blood are gonna share times with you that I’m not

It’s not like I gave you up or did wrong I wanted you but still had no say being so young

My little princess you look just like me splitting image don’t need no selfie

Got my eyes, got my nose, got my smile and the facial expressions too just like me

I hope when you get older you give me the chance to get to know you because I know that I’ll be

Waiting and counting the days until I can meet you there but for now I’ll take it lightly