Bad Energy (Freestyle)
• Written by katdawg74
katdawg74's Notes
The first version of this song got deleted somehow. I pray to God it won't happen again but with another song.
For this version of the song, I freestyled it and wrote it down. There's no ACTUAL song with it but there's lyrics. I wrote this at school and one line got flagged but the counselor actually liked the song and told me writing is a good way to let things out. I agree with her. (Note that half of the song was done on a Google Doc and the other half was done on here. There's no chorus)
Yes I rhymed droppin' with droppin' it's a freestyle deal with it.
I can’t even keep my head up anymore,
My feet feel heavy against the cold floor,
I need a higher dosage; these pills just don’t work,
The demons in my mind, in the dark, they lurk,
The devil on my shoulder tellin’ me I’ll d*e soon,
At any time, it could happen, drop de*d by noon,
Can’t even step outside without feeling gloom,
Tryin’ to feel better, the impending doom,
Haunts me forever, I don’t wanna assume,
Feelin’ my mistakes, even in the classroom,
I just wanna make the world a better place,
But how can I move on when my whole life's a chase?
I can’t just go on; I need to ease the tension,
But it don’t help, my heart feels like a suspension,
It holds me back, and I don’t need prevention,
It holds me down, unwanted attention,
Maybe I should “Miles Morales” and move dimensions,
An’ it don’t help that the world is falling apart,
I knew not just from the beginning but from the start,
I’d have to adapt to the rapid change and be smart,
But how could I do such a thing with this broken heart?
I can’t see what’s in front of me, only the past,
Hopefully, I don’t waste this life like my last,
You know, in my last life I was an outcast?
I’m not one of the only ones being harassed,
You wanna know a secret? Just don’t tell the Devil,
He wants me to be perfect, but I’m too gentle,
Treat me differently, I swear I’m not special,
You and I both know my feelings are confidential,
I won’t tell nobody, not even Jesus,
I’m just feeling like holy people displease us,
I can’t really trust you, but keep this between us,
If it ever gets out, the results are egregious,
Life ain’t too sweet, it’s no Reese's Pieces,
I’m gettin’ sick of bein’ told what I can do,
That sh*ts up to me, it ain’t up to you,
You won’t walk straight, the feelings askew,
I’m just tryna wake the world to get through,
To them, nobody seems to care, God Damn,
Treat livin’ like an exam, I fail, and I pass,
You slip up and land straight on your a*s,
My will’s so strong, it could cut through glass,
But not the type that your windows made of,
My own standards, they soar up way above,
Tellin’ me not to let up this opportunity,
Don’t think I’ll pass, being truthfully,
They say I’m too quiet, it’s just scrutiny,
They say I’m too forward, it’s just honesty,
I need to motion to get a move on,
They all ball like Kobe but I ball like LeBron,
I've been quiet too long, question for heaven,
What's your main motive? What's your intention?
I've been through too much, I've learned my lesson,
Your not the only one using power as a weapon,
We've been up too long, haven't slept recently,
Just got more M's in my account, another shopping spree,
Life's not just about all the thrills or the money,
As far as I'm concerned, its about anxiety,
There's too much on my plate, my body's full of satiety,
I feel like somethings wrong, but what does it entail?
It's bigger than before, a whole different scale,
Are people following me? My same trail?
Losin' my sanity probably, gonna inhale-exhale,
Can't go too far in my mind,
Should I relapse or rewind?
You don't wanna know you'll find,
Just a young lost soul rich and blind,
I feel like I start from the bottom,
I'm a loner at night, that's a problem?
My mood falls like leaves during autumn,
At this point I'll never reach stardom,
Do I remember how? I've forgotten,
Am I the only one talkin'?
After all these pills I've been dockin',
I ain't even thought about stoppin',
Just watch all these bills I been droppin'
Now goin' to church ain't an option,
After all these pills I've been poppin'
Don't be shocked when bodies start droppin'
