Goodbye

I just turned 18 for the last time

I just took a loss it ain’t even halftime

Survived a bloody mess that had some sharp nines

Everyone hates the thunder then wanna pop out when the sun shines

When the sun shines

So tell me how the fuck do I say goodbye?

(Do I say goodbye)

So tell me how the fuck do I say goodbye?

I just tried to take the wheel to control my life

I just seen the devil on my shoulder whispering about a sacrifice

I just took a chance by rolling the dice

But nobody fucks with thunder like they do the sun shine

Just reported myself missing because deep inside this isn’t me

That little girl is gone there’s no more picnics on the beach

Tryna find out what happened between now and quarantine

Being numb is hella dangerous do what you can for that dopamine

Used to kick back after that quick dash to Cumberland farms and down a dollar slushee

Back when I could rest my head on a pillow and trust that I’d always have a family to love me

My life is fucked but at least I keep it real against the personalities of ugly

Mistakes I wish I never made and the history held above me

So tell me how the fuck do I say goodbye?

(Do I say goodbye)

So tell me how the fuck do I say goodbye?

I don’t fear my pain I fear the waterfall of it all for my future

It keeps flowing and flowing but I’m not some dumb little kid anymore who gets told to keep being a trooper

Anyone like me who’s had to leave their life behind millions of times never fully rests without settling

I had a lot of character development but my mind draws blank with all these feelings I’m developing

All of my disorders rage a war daily as a result of my day to settle things

It’s funny how people have early on glimpses of your life

I had to start walking somehow before I could get to pedaling

So tell me how the fuck do I say goodbye?

(Do I say goodbye)

So tell me how the fuck do I say goodbye?