doN't UndErSTaND by onYx

I just don't understand

 

I been goin' through hell

 

I wanna shoot up yo' mans

 

But I still wish you well

 

Keep my head up, prayin'

 

I wish I was never stayin'

 

But my heart, it be breakin'

 

No time for conversating, woah-oh

 

 

 

Okay, nigga, I know they wish I was dead

 

It's okay, nigga, I been fucked up, stuck in my head

 

When I get up, nigga, you better find your bread

 

I just want love, nigga, I just really want neck

 

I just wan' have sex, fucked up but not yet

 

My darling got a vest, shit VVS, yeah

 

And she ain't say yes, I might be obsessed, yeah

 

Fucked up, not takin' my meds

 

She wish I was dead, yeah

 

 

 

Contemplatin' 'bout this love shit, intoxicatin'

 

So fucked up, guess I'm intoxicated

 

I gave you my love and all my obligations

 

When I die they gon' be steady parading

 

'Cause if I die, these niggas continue to be masqueradin'

 

And they down bad, see it on they fuckin' faces

 

Made your mom mad, she prayin' for some changes

 

 

 

God never answered my prayers, that's why I don't say shit

 

'Cause I know God be watchin' he just don't wanna say it

 

He made me who I am today, ditchin' a fake bitch

 

'Cause it fuckin' with my mental, I do this shit everyday, bitch

 

And I guess we can replay it, yeah

 

So baby, come along and replay this, yeah

 

And you know I'ma be steady prayin'

 

 

 

My mama a single one, I live with my mama and my grandma

 

Tryna get out of this Hell, I ain't even got no grandpa

 

My mama's daddy was a bitch, I wanna go to Florida Tampa

 

And I know I'm only 14, but baby, I'm tryna understand ya

 

I really don't understand how I keep goin'

 

Tryna figure out my damn emotions

 

She want me dead, I'm out in the open

 

My tears be flowin' like an ocean

 

Gave you my love, but you didn't notice

 

Am_ I enough? You said I'd know this

 

But that was a lie, that was a lie, that was a lie

 

Yeah, that was a lie

 

 

 

I have one foot in the grave, might die

 

She tryna save face, wonder why

 

How many more meds can I take? Don't ask why

 

Baby, you're so fake, I see it in your eyes

 

Can I be saved? I don't know, can I?

 

Why these niggas snakes? They don't take my side

 

I wanna get real high to the sky and fuckin' fly

 

Soar like a fuckin' sty, uh

 

 

 

I just don't understand

 

I been goin' through hell

 

I wanna shoot up yo' mans

 

But I still wish you well

 

Keep my head up, prayin'

 

I wish I was never stayin'

 

But my heart, it be breakin'

 

No time for conversating, woah-oh

 

 

 

I complete paragraphs, 8th grade, cyberschool

 

Goin' into 9th grade, what's wrong wit' you?

 

Fucked up every day, the places I've gone with you, yeah

 

It takes so long with you

 

Wanted to go to Saint Laurent with you

 

Breakin' my heart, I've always lost to you

 

Fucking up my heart, I gave my heart to you, yeah

 

 

 

So fuck these niggas, they don't understand

 

Imma count up all my fuckin' bands

 

Don't care if I get fuckin' banned

 

With my niggas, they call me captain

 

I rap fast with a damn passion

 

I don't really know what's gon' happen

 

But all I know is that I'ma keep rappin'

 

 

 

Zoning out with the shit I imagine

 

Never goin' out, anemic as hell, barely can go up them stairs

 

At the junior high, I tried to do you right

 

Shit I'm not doin' right, baby, I'm losin' sight, uh

 

You my kryptonite, I can tell

 

You wanna see me fuckin' burn in this hell

 

Under your spell, trapped in this cell

 

14, but I'm makin' money, I wish you well, uh

 

 

 

Been a while since we met, yeah?

 

Fucked up, this shit left a dent, yeah

 

14 but already bent, yeah

 

I know she hate me, but maybe not yet, yeah

 

Fucking on her body 'cause I'm upset, yeah

 

Stole some fuckin' Xannies, stole some checks, yeah

 

I just need the Xanny, get her wet, yeah

 

I just need the Xanny, tryna meet these ends, yeah

 

 

 

Mama got the flu, fucked up, so are you

 

Don't know what to do with the shit I'm goin' through

 

I loved you it's true, I was young, but I grew

 

I just want you, who are you gonna run to?

 

I know I fucked up, I see that

 

And you wanna repeat that

 

Sayin' you don't need that

 

Sayin' I don't need dad

 

But the truth is, the truth is

 

I'm lyin', you knew this

 

 

 

I just don't understand

 

I been goin' through hell

 

I wanna shoot up yo' mans

 

But I still wish you well

 

Keep my head up, prayin'

 

I wish I was never stayin'

 

But my heart, it be breakin'

 

No time for conversating, woah-oh

 

 

 

Fuck you niggas, I don't need you

 

And I hate you, yeah, I wan' leave you

 

Feel like a dumb bitch 'cause I wanna keep you

 

I don't love it but I love this, I wanna see you, yeah